Confusions turn to conclusions….

No judgements, just endings…

It’s not you it’s me, it’s not me it’s you.. the truth of its life. It’s complacency and fear, it’s the stop, go, stay, don’t say, don’t rock the boat, ignore it until it goes away. The deprogramming from it all.

To the ever changing force that I am, it’s not the life for everyone and trust me I understand it. But this life isn’t everyone’s it is mine.

I can’t stop won’t stop, I take the risk, I keep pushing forward, burnout, hideaway, Stand up, stand out, go against the flow, speak out loud, rock the boat.. I am that one the one who says fuck let’s knock it over if it isn’t right. I Stand up, face it, fall down then learn and stand the fuck back up. I call it what it is. I won’t ever stay the stuck.

The potential for destruction vs probability for success, to be honest it doesn’t matter. The desire, the motivation, that fucking feeling that excitement that shit that makes you feel alive.. it’s what we desire and it’s worth the price we are willing to pay.

There are so many ways people try to get that feeling.. yes it may look to some, that others choose a more destructive then others but that is a judgment reserved for the blind eye. Still I will tell you it’s all the same. Call it what you want love, drugs, fight or flight, trauma, religion, boss status, healing, spirituality.. there is endless ways to name it but it all boils down to one thing. The need to feel alive at whatever cost.

Do with this what you will, I’m only speaking my truth, I’m not saying it’s yours too I’m saying it’s mine and I love it.