It takes hold of you like a mad lover refusing to let go of a relationship that should have ended decades ago.

Clinging to your every move.

Contaminating your every thought.

There is no off switch and you can’t just make it go away. There are emotions to be felt, processed and understood.

Depression sets in and you start to believe the stories you tell yourself and how can you do anything else?

The phone doesn’t ring and you feel like a burden to what good you have left in your life.

Depression makes your worst fears seem like reality and brings you to a dark, dark place where you would give anything to feel alive again.

Depression is temporary and if your heart is beating and your breathing you can beat this!

I want you to beat it because I want to beat it too.

Depression doesn’t have to be so lonely if it could only truly be understood.

It’s terrifying to be honest about depression because people tell you one thing and then you watch what they do and listen to them talk shit about people with depression.

The worst part is they don’t even realize what they do.

It’s like hey I have depression but I manage it better then you because I can keep my house clean so let me judge you.

When judgement takes seat that’s when I bow out because the last thing anyone needs is to be judged for the way they are handling their depression.

Depression is a road to hell paved in good intentions.

It’s the I am going to get out of bed, take a shower, get dressed and go do something only to cry for hours because you couldn’t even accomplish that.

It’s the I’m so drained and so down that I can’t eat or drink and I have zero desire to do any of it.

Depression is not knowing where or how to begin so giving up and not even trying because if you fail again it may be the last straw that you’ve been waiting on.

Depression is scary and it can make you lose everything you never wanted to.

During the holidays depression really sets it’s hooks into you when you realize just how little you actually mean and begin to wonder just how many people would show up to your funeral, then wonder why they would even bother especially because they refused to show up for your life unless it was convenient.

Well this took a morbid turn quickly…..

So let’s see if we can find a bright side together if you’re reading this it means you’re still here and for that I’m grateful because it means you have hope and that brings me hope.

Hope that you are looking for reasons to fight the depression and maybe even hope that you hope I will fight the depression.

That shows me we don’t have to know each other to love each other and want better days for each other, that brings hope back to life.

It means that maybe some one will have released some emotions as they read this cried, laughed, hoped and maybe a little spark will have been ignited.

It means maybe you have a reason to come back later to see if I wrote something hopeful and inspiring.

I want to but right now I also know to be gentle with myself, you should be doing the same. With all that’s going on now a days it’s okay to not be okay. Just know if you find yourself alone you can come here and see you’re not alone I’m going through it too and we can quietly root each other on.

Depression is hard but we are strong and if you’re here there is a high chance that you have already survived some pretty hard shit.