I never agreed with how we were told it was to be. I’m a different breed I suppose, not a martyr, just one who couldn’t grasp the concept that no matter how many times someone hurts you that you stop loving them.

Truth be told if I love/loved you in any way and you hurt, betrayed, or tried to destroy me, I still love you and I always will.

I can’t turn it off my love, I love you as painful as it was to say goodbye to you. I had to start loving you from afar.

I came to an understanding early that just because I love you doesn’t make it ok for you to hurt me repeatedly, so I had to walk away.

Yes, I still love you and I think of you at random times and I wish you all the best in your life.

I wonder how you are and if life is good, regardless of all you did or didn’t do I am aware that it’s a two-way street with a lot of outside influences driving by with their opinions.

Occasionally I may even reach out if I hear something is wrong and that you’re going through it, this time it’s with strict boundaries in place. I am the master of my happiness and I have that key on me at all times.

You can’t affect me like you once did,

I love you still and I honor every relationship I have ever had no matter how painful, because of them I learned who I am.

So to anyone who is no longer in my life, don’t sit with loss or fear of retribution when you think of all that occurred between us.

I have no ill wishes or intent, I have no desire for revenge. I still love you, but I love myself more.

I truly am rooting for your healing and happiness. I am living my best life and I am forever grateful for the lessons we taught each other.