I’ve seen so many responses where the answer given for almost everything is inner peace and calm.

So since this is a popular answer how many feel they’ve achieved it?
If you’ve achieved it and this is the answer you give why not then go further and explain the process.

I believe if you had achieved it you would share willingly.
So let me ask you…
Those who believe in only a positive mindset as well.
How do you expect to achieve peace and calm if you will not acknowledge the pain and emotions you’re trying to ignore?

Do you understand emotions and feelings are healthy and valid.
Now the actions we take when in an emotional state are typically unhealthy and harming.

Yet we don’t truly understand what emotions or feelings really called or what they mean.
We instead lump them all together under and umbrella phrase such as anxiety. Yet never go deeper, anxiety is so much more then one singular emotion it is a culmination of experiences.

My hearts racing, I don’t feel well, I’m scared, it’s hot in here, panic, fear, worry, concern.
I hope I’m being clear.

Until we can go deeper into understanding and unlearning the ways we’ve been taught. Please help each other out because false information is only harming everyone.

Feelings are an experience beyond your emotions it then being felt in your physical body. Ex feelings of nausea, cold, warmth.. that go along with negative emotions.

Speak truth that you have achieved yourself through personal experience and growth or don’t speak.

What am I supposed to feel?

When overwhelmingly that past has been quite the ordeal?

What is it that I should have done?

I was a child. It was a crime.

He walked away free and clear.

I still pay every single day for his crime.

You marked me broken, dirty and unclean and began to disassociate yourself from me.

I was 6 when it began he was in his 30’s?

How is it at 14, I bore the full responsibility?

I was left to figure it out wondering why no one was there for me. Yet everyone was frustrated and angry.

One by one eventually they all walked away.

I can’t blame them, the mess of me that was left was never the same.

Angry, bitter, crazy, unkempt.. that was the trauma of what was done to me.

Yet simply put that wasn’t truly me.

I had become a prisoner trapped in anger, fear, confusion and pain.

Lost in place and time caused by what had been done to me.

You would have known, had you taken the time to see.

That girl has healed and this woman now stands.

Get ready because victim no more.

When I was 14 and it was found out, I wasn’t allowed to fight back.

I have located the abuser and with God by my side I’m taking my power back.

Hoping to find the law on my side. Only time will tell how we end this ride.

The damage too great the heartbreak too wide.

I was swallowed by my grief for so long. I will never again hide!

As a woman I will suffer no more for the crimes of abuse I was forced to endure.

I stand. I rise.

I will force the tides to change before I ever stand idly by.

If you’re being hurt at any age seek help.

If you’re an adult aware that a child is being harmed it is your responsibility to put an end to the abuse and turn in the abuser!

It is never okay to victim blame, shame and silence a child.

If you don’t hold the abuser accountable you’re just as bad.

Sexual predators do not belong roaming free in our society.

He did it to me, did you look for a trail after you let him live his life clear and free?

I love in love, I’ve learned a better way. It’s more then what you say, but also how you say it. Love speaks through all that you do, it’s in the words you choose and the way that you move. It flows through you and others feel and see it too. Love is who I am, love is what I do. Love is free and love is true, understand the ways of love start with simply being you. You before the world told you who you should be, go back to better days when you could just be free.

I believe in love, it’s been there for all the change. No matter the trauma or the pain love stood by my side while I felt lost and afraid. It wasn’t love from another not always you’ll see. The deepest love I’ve ever known has come from within me. I’ve consoled myself when I couldn’t take anymore. I woke myself up and pushed me towards the door. I’ve wiped my tears and rocked through my cries. I’ve stayed by my side through all the goodbyes. I am in love with myself it’s how I survive in this life.

I live in love for me it’s the only way. It’s the hope that we can change this world, it’s the way to change the world. Love is

I exist in love I exist for change.

I laugh in love, my heart is free.

I feel in love, with everything in me.

I think in love, I open my mind.

I know in love, I don’t own you, you are not mine.

I learn in love, change happens all the time.

I evolve in love, I stand by you until you decline.

I grow in love, Boundaries set are safe and kind.

I morph in love, I adapt there is no blame it’s life.

I change in love, I simply exist to be.

I soar in love, I speak my will there is no confusion. We all know what to do.

I rise in love, I trust you with me. We speak in love it happens so easily.

I speak in love- I only mean what I say. There is no confusion or in between.

I scribe in love- to share the way. Love is the answer to changing the ways.

I see in love- Nothing else exists. I observe who you are and I understand why.

I perceive in love- I see everyone’s perspectives and can understand why.

I understand in love- It’s not my place to judge, I’m not perfect all of the time.

I will in love- All I desire to be. This begins in us all, for you as for me.

I desire in love- all that is for me. Love is peace. I hope you understand it would be a dream to me.

I dream in love- I breath life into motion. My dreams are messages of love from me, that I choose to share with a chosen few.

I color the world in love- I light the path for those who can see, so they may find the way. Only pure hearts can understand what I say.

I stand for what I love- All that is right and true. Right is right is right is right is right and right and true but only when right is right is right is right for everyone not just you.

I die when I cease to love- There is nothing left to feel. The pain is to intense, this life cannot be real. I look for an escape a way to make it through the day. Can anybody see me am I even real? I love so I fight for a better way. I want everyone to live a life they love so they don’t have to numb their life away. We don’t have to do it alone anymore, it’s safe to want to be free. Change happens rapidly we only need to realize, it begins with you and me.

I become in love when I fall in love with myself- The only way to heal yourself is to embrace and love all of yourself. The parts you hate that you’ve wished away. They are beautiful parts that you were taught to hate. I’m sorry others made you feel that way.

I know in love- This life gets tiring and we all need help is too much for us to be expected to do it all by ourselves. Help is out there is you should need. Do what you need to make it through another day, don’t give up change is on the way.

I am proud in love- I’m proud of you for being so strong so long.

I don’t even know where to begin.

I can’t remember the day it began or how it started, I don’t honestly remember what happened or in what chronological order or why.

I tried to wear your shirt today, the black one with the green dragon. The one your brother and you have worn so many times before, as soon as I put it on I almost fell to the floor. The tears still flowing I took it off faster then I put it on and grabbed my only nightgown. As fucked up as it is it gets really hard to stick around.

What’s worse is knowing you could honestly care less but even worse yet is I still can’t understand why. I know I fucked up but my god I fucking tried to be better then what I had known. I love you with every breath. There’s not a damn thing I can do to make you talk to me.

I didn’t want to leave I had no choice it was a matter of safety I simply wasn’t safe around you. Every time I tried to process or take time alone I was handcuffed and committed to a mental facility. I don’t even have words anymore.

I fucked up I didn’t mean too but in the end I did because I don’t have you by my side.

I owe you nothing… if I choose to include you it is because I value you and I want to share my time with you. If at any point I cannot share my time with you (wether it be because at that moment I’m not willing too or because I’m not able) is irrelevant.

I understand there is life going on, self love, responsibilities, the everyday in’s and out’s.. memories being made, families to take care of… I get it completely and I wish that it would be universal knowledge.

Unfortunately many of times we are met with a selfish response… anger, pain, frustration, disappointment even rage. When we do not jump for someone who asks, instead of understanding, patience and love. This is however the conditioning of the old ways. Some may never escape it.

I do not tolerate that in my life, especially under the guise of love. It isn’t love as a matter of fact if we want to classify it as love it would fall under the selfish love category.. you know the love I’m talking of… the one where it’s demanded to always someone else’s needs before your own, unfortunately it’s never truly reciprocated.

I am simply not at that place in my life anymore the love I give and accept is the selfless kind… you take care of you as you need, I take care of me as I need, when we need each other we are there. I am always rooting for you and want your success even if I don’t tell you daily. Yes it may be hours or days before I respond to a call or message depending on what is happening in my life, but when I do I am met with love and kindness because it’s understood life happens.

This is the love to give and accept, it is kind it is patient, it doesn’t hurt, it is not demanding or selfish, it is real and has unspoken boundaries.

It is never I root for your success while you silently pray for my failure that my love is toxicity at its best.

Today is a day much like yesterday…

Except today I feel it in a different way, today I feel tired, my body feels worn and the tears are flowing freely.

Yesterday I was full of joy and laughter, enjoying the world for all of its beauty.

Today I’m crying in bed and embracing all the pieces that make me… Me!

I know better then to be hard on myself and push to do more… to be totally transparent today I won’t get out the door.

I could list a hundred things that I should or need to do.. then complain about how I can’t get things done and whatever other bullshit pops up..

I choose instead to be grateful and easy with myself, because through the pain and tears I clearly know I’m blessed…

I have a warm bed with fluffy pillows and blankets that cradle me and catch my tears on days like these.. I have my animals who won’t leave my side or my feet..

Today my dear sistar listened to my fears reassured me that what I need will be arriving here.. my amazing love keeps checking in on me even though she is working hard she always makes time for me.. my daughter and her girlfriend took the dog for his walk and came back with coffee to surprise me.. my son has texted 3 times already and is suggesting I rest and letting me know he will be home soon and we can watch the mandalorian where we left off.

I see we need to go shopping for groceries but we do have some food in our house how blessed am I, when so many are going with out.

EVERYTHING starts with YOU!!! STOP PAYING for the intentional lies they sell you!!!!

While you’re praising. Praying. Gratefully giving your power away to another.

FYI- you are stuck and refusing to see it if your biggest concern is love light & twin flames and it’s been more then 6 months.

They tell you it’s not a race but you can’t see why!!

Start paying attention and realize I don’t speak for me I have it all already, I want for and need for nothing.

Either way what I cultivated healed and created is good because it is solely dependent on me.

Start paying attention to what they tell you!!! What they say vs what they show and tell you, are 3 different things!

How many realize that?

I need to see how bad this is…

YOU KNOW THIS IS END. THIS IS RAPTURE!!!

YOU HAVE FREE WILL DONT LET THEM MANIPULATE YOU TO FORGET!!

Just as dark Rose, so did light.

Do you even know the team you’re playing for?

Did you ever even honestly consider it.

Before you say you understand it all, make sure you payed attention and comprehended, if you’re unsure simply ask for clarity.

If you’re wondering if you do, I assure you don’t! If you did really know you wouldn’t dare try. Especially with the new info you just received.

I love you all Absofuckinglutely! I remember being scared, I also remember years of being used, abused, stolen from, demands on me all the time.

It was only good while I didn’t know who I was.

I KNOW WHO I AM

DO YOU REALLY EVEN REALIZE WHAT YOU’RE DOING TO YOUR HEARTS & SOULS?

I get it, you really believe all you have been told, because it’s all you know.

I promise some open mindedness and hard work, will get you further then bullshit reasons of why you can’t.

Love doesn’t tell you to stay hurting call it twin flames and tell you it’s divine have you stuck for years in lessons you were meant to done with almost 2 years now… while you drown in tears that my loves is pain.. and lose money paying for tarot readings that reinforce you being stuck!!!!

TRUE LOVE SAYS WAKE THE FUCK UP!!

THE ONLY WAY TO SAVE YOURSELF IS TO CHOOSE YOURSELF ABOVE ALL!!

I LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU ALL!

Unfortunately a lot of people are going to realize they have been abused their entire lives…. Many of us were raised by narcissistic abusers and unfortunately our parents will never take accountability or even desire to understand the effects of what they did.

They’re tired old and in Denial.

Now here’s the thing if you were raised like this chances are you picked up this parenting and way of living, putting your kids through it too…

Start questioning, reevaluating and making appropriate steps to fixing the relationships with your children that may be at odds or strained as a result of your learned ways!

Forgive your parents it was done to them too. Stop allowing them to cause you pain. You owe them nothing you have already paid in full with your sanity heart & body!

If they are committed to making you the villain and blaming you for their lives going bad. Or their poor choices.. Remind them they created you and remove yourself from the situation until you want to revisit.

Kids realize this was done to all of us try and see were really trying to do better then what we have know, together we can heal this and bridge a new way!

All colors are absolutely beautiful in every shade available and colors bring our world to life! White can be brilliant just as Black is magnificent. Both can be dull alone or depending on shades absolutely breathtaking.

However white alone is boring and when you add the tiniest bit of color you change the world. We in America came to the melting pot willingly or unwillingly it doesn’t matter anymore we’re here all of us of all different shades.

So get in the pot and let’s make something new and beautiful or get out! It’s really that simple!

There is separation in family and humanity is clinging on by a thread, it is time we are taking back control and making appropriate changes. Now we are in an awkward place of unlearning, clearing, healing, understanding, opening, Integrating new information, opening to different perspectives and reclaiming all that was wrongfully taken and held back from us. However we aren’t doing it in hate or anger or even pain, we are doing it in love and through changed behaviors! It begins as we uplift one another and remind each other that we are all divine and hold the heart of Jesus and Mary within each of us! Once we find balance it all begins!

Sometimes people need separation so that we may heal and learn a better way. This way we clear the road for whatever is meant for us and we allow the other the same, often we find when the love is real it finds it way back to us. However this time it is ready for a new beginning in new ways when it does return. It is time for you to focus on yourselves and your children as you heal independently so you may come back and heal the family together. Through the true heart of Jesus and Mary can we truly change the world. It begins within each of us this is the journey home.

Open to the awesomeness around you!

Tami Irizarry @DivineTemptations