As a mother of 2 now fully grown divinely gifted children, I remember the struggles I faced. How alone I felt and so scared to mess them up.

Knowing that I wasn’t prepared to give them all the support they needed to truly grow with the knowledge and informs I had available. Also knowing I certainly didn’t want them to miss out on their magic and truth or to have done to them what was done to me!

What was a divinely magickal momma to do???? 

Pictures this in your minds eye if you will, Being a magickal momma in 1999 who was ready to change it all for her kids! With little resources available  I turned to myself and ancestors meditating, questioning searching for answers being guided by my Knowing. I researched anything and everything I could find, not stopping there I read everything I could find from Dr. Spock, to Dan Millman, to the Bible to…well you get the point! 

Then I started thinking about all the ways I was made to feel throughout my life that hurt and affected me in a bad way and I tried really hard not to do those things to my children.Unfortunately I’m not perfect and I made mistakes, from mistakes comes opportunity for growth and change,  once learned & healed come growth and knowledge. Ahh Wisdom yes wisdom along with tears, questioning, criticism, opinions, doubt and fears of failure.

As one went to two the three of us love we learn, we laugh  we grow, we listen,  we communicate, we tell each other what we need to know to grow and change, we trust, we heal, we created our blessed life, from days of struggles and pains of life, loss grief, transitions, sexual identity yes we are a Lesbian multiracial home! Through how to handle extreme amounts of energy, to nightmares, dark figures, hearing names being called, lights, fairies etc I’ve been through it all! 
Second guessing myself most of the way I didn’t have much to go on, but I knew above all what felt right and what didn’t especially when it came to making decisions for them. 

After a successful childhood they not only survived but thrived from and they didn’t even need to do that much work on the mistakes I had made! Finally I could breathe I was free from the pain of the past I had successfully broken the cycles and helped My children grow into happy healthy adults who are amazing souls! 

Are they perfect? No I told you no one is and that is awesome. They are pretty close to it! They are compassionate, open to change and learn. They lead in love and don’t ever trust fear, they stumble at times and they rise up taller, they question everything including my patience but they are the best humans I have ever met.

I don’t say that because mine but because they’re genuinely good far better then I was at their age. So it brings me so much hope to say it’s because they’re real, they aren’t afraid to communicate or take accountability they also aren’t afraid to assign blame where it is due and hold people accountable. They know when to look inside to see if it everyone else or if they are causing the problems, they know when to apologize. They know when to be gentle and what to stand their ground.

They help everyone they can because they love and want better for this life. They not only genuinely understand but beyond knowing they live the example leading the way, calling to all future leaders amongst them that they change they want to see begins with them!

Do I know it all, no I don’t and I don’t claim to. Am I perfect, again nope but I’ve been there! It’s nice to know you can trust the advice because you can see the proof it works and when you know it feels right in your soul it’s just extra confirmation!! Besides all parents need a support system that won’t judge them or have them committed! I love you all! Stay blessed!!!!

Again I could be wrong, I could know absolutely nothing, I could be crazy I know your mind is saying this to you and trust me I understand where you’re coming from it’s a lot to process but I only ask that you look. If I’m wrong you have now researched and educated yourself and found validity in your belief or you feel, see, know and find that there is truth to all I am writing and now you are forearmed! I am the only me I can be, I am that I am….

Now that you are questioning or feel you know please look really look.. it’s so sickening. Look up connections between mother Teresa who was canonized as a saint and her ties to Giselle maxwell, her father, Jeffrey Epstein, and Epstein to Trump and so forth… child trafficking charges, what Adrenochrome is and how it’s harvested etc and now you found the connection- church, media, government, medical. This is a human farm we are cash cows. That is why you are told to ironically “go forth and multiply” or “Be fruitful and multiply” (Genesis 1:28) which we know we are a overly populated planet so it will cause disastrous implications for the planet.

I ask that you look at these some of her famous quotes and then after you see her crimes look at her famous quotes again with the new perspective and replace the word small for child and look at the work love should as a form of sex, replace strength with power and see Adrenochrome tell me
what you now see.

Peace begins with a smile..

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

There are no great things, only
small things with great love.

Happy are those.

Spread love everywhere you go.

Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.

If you can’t feed a hundred people, then feed just one.

Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.

Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.

Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.

Trust nothing you are told until you research deeply. The problem is people are doing what when they pray to the god they have been taught to? They are praying to a false god to pray is to ask for something in return if something… like a contract and it’s a sin to pray to a false god so these people are being preyed up (fed upon) believing they will enter the kingdom of God if they follow the rules of the church.. and confess their sins and say their prayers, unfortunately, they are not living the way of the true God-consciousness and they are praying to a false god and confessing sins and saying prayers (making a contract).

Instead of learning by trial and error, healing the cycles and changing the behaviors- which is the way to get to that heaven level so to say…

False is the god this society teaches you about in my opinion and my research leads me to believe it is, in fact, the devil energy you are warned about.

Through control and fear people become stuck they hear the pastors and clergy speak some truth which makes it comfortable enough but they aren’t told all they need so they can never truly put it to action in any real and tangible way.

Hence the saying you meet more true-hearted people in the streets and the imposters in the church.. not that the intention isn’t there but the application and change never come… don’t forget the road to hell is paved in good intentions they are telling you all you need to see to show You it’s a trap but in a world where few can see many have to repeat.

Good things happen out of the blue to give you a break from the pain and hopefully, by doing so you can return to joy momentarily opening the possibility to opening the door to your past and learning why you are you and why you do act like you do and choose what actions to make…..what so many don’t realize is that until you understand the actions and heal the pain that caused them.. the cycle continues as long as the cycle continues you have to return to this same pain in a far deeper way every time you don’t get it right… hence reincarnation. It’s not just what you’ve done it’s what others have done to you and what you chose to do to others in return because of your experience and it’s so much deeper but that is a basic place to truly start. Think about whatever is unhealed in this life and where you are in your life, all the money in the world doesn’t mean a thing if you’re not a better person.

So all the mess you made that you didn’t clean up is given right back to you this time from a much harder starting point than you had in this life.

Once you break and heal the cycles and become the lessons you embody and completely heal in all ways not just mentally you are clear and then and only then do you enter the true kingdom of God.

Those who were able to keep their heart pure, regardless of the pain, trauma, and heartbreak they had to endure. They were open to love and still tried to do what they could to help from a place of love when others needed them.

They are divine and awakened on a deeper level. They

are known as lightworkers, empaths, medicine people, to wake others and begin to question, heal in deeper ways and assist in breaking the dark control over this planet. So yes everyone who was called felt the energy of the awakening.

Most believe they completed a full awakening yes the energy was awakened, but until all of the work is truly done you don’t have a complete awakening to the true God Consciousness.

Many believed that was it and never went further, for them this was comfortable for them it was complete.. when in reality they are stuck and not doing the work so they will return unless they go deeper.

The tools like tarot & reiki etc help to give hope and guide you yet that’s all.

Go further, do the research for yourself, go deeper, look again, see what was right in front of you. It is time to save yourself the power is within you!! Be careful who you trust very interesting times are upon us!

No longer

No longer can you claim you didn’t know better…

No longer is there safety in ignorance.

No longer is there comfort in excuses.

Make sure your heart is pure.

Your intentions true.

Reciprocity is key!

Nobody should be made to wait on you.

Be sure you make shit right.

Understand with anything and everything it doesn’t matter if it’s love, family, friendship, time, business, money, sex, material, energy.. You can’t take and not give.

This is endgame.

If you choose to not evolve shit is about to get real fast.

Take it as a final warning or however you will.

What is in your heart and how you choose to live, how you love, how you respect and how you treat all will decide the outcome of how the rest of your life will unfold.

Help has been sent and many have abused it while claiming ignorance and now it will not be offered in the same way again.

This is the end of days as we have known it.

The final chance to make it right and move from the hells of life to heaven on earth.

The choice is no longer yours.

Evolve grow and change or be forced to.

I love absolutely so I won’t commit!

Love is limitless and pure

Love is safe never demanding

Love is open and wise

Love is free and everlasting..

If you’re committed it means placed in confinement.

Confinement means held captive.

Captive means taken and held as a prisoner of war.

And

Captive also means held under control of another but having the appearance of independence.

Prisoner means person deprived of liberty and kept under involuntary restraint, confinement, or custody.

Liberty means the quality or state of being free.

So no never committed.

Always in love!

I am sovereign. I am love. I am liberty. I am power.

The world is in a state of chaos, unbalanced and full of pain.

We have basic rights that aren’t given to all and they continue to be taken away, why? Because you view us as less or is it because you’re afraid if you give us the most basic of rights we will find our power and take over the world?

We don’t want to take your world away, we only want to be safe in our own space, safe in our skin and in our truth.

How can any human with a soul stand and support what is happening and what is being done, continuing on with their lives as if all is well? It’s easy I suppose when you buy the lies that it doesn’t effect you.

Here’s the cold hard truth we are all affected by it, first they withhold rights and basic human decency and a few speak but it goes unheard. Then they take away more rights and implement the procedures they deem necessary to remain in control and nothing gets said because it doesn’t effect the majority.

They rule with terror and it’s accepted because those with the advantage don’t truly feel it.. when we raise our voices and allow our pain to be heard we are deemed as unreasonable and problematic. What you don’t see is the longer you remain silent on these issues you feel don’t concern you, you are giving them the power to come for you and when they do no one will be left to speak and help you. Not because we don’t want to but because your silence is killing us.

I hear and jokes about the purge but the reality is that’s what going on but we call it justice and blame the victims. How can you say you are of God and allow these injustices to continue? Black men women and children being killed for the amount of melanin in their skin, 3000 if not more Latin brown skinned children that were in ice custody missing? How does a caged child go missing?yes a child in a cage really allow that to sit with you… LGBTQIA men and women no longer given protection or rights to medical care… but it doesn’t affect you because little Billy and Anne are home safe.

The hate once spoken in the privacy of the home is now proudly shouted and celebrated in public forums and we have a leader that applauses and supports this. We are awakening and many are living in this false hope that love and light will save us all but what will make the difference is our voice and our truth. The burning desire to end the inequality and injustice.

How long will it not affect you? How long can you turn a blind eye? How can you say you love your family or friends if you allow this to continue it may not be happening to you right now but it’s happening to someone you love even if you don’t want to admit it or see it.

To be a warrior of light means to speak your truth and to use your voice to speak for those who have had their voices taken away.

When we lift each other up we rise, when we turn a blind eye it’s only time until we all fall.

I can touch on a million things and I’m not intentionally leaving any group out what I am doing is putting a call to action. Change begins at home.

Because I was your daughter.. it caused her pain to look at me.

Because she was hurt, she didn’t know how to love me and a part of her couldn’t understand why she hated me.

Because I was your daughter I desperately called out to you.. that only fueled her anger and rage.

Because you were my dad, I asked about you all the time.

Because you were my dad, I wasn’t allowed to know your name until I was 18.

Because you were his son, abandonment came easy to you.

Because you survived the demons of your father , you figured I would survive your demons too.

Because I was their kid, I had so much hate and anger.

Childhood is supposed to be nurturing and loving but because I was their kid I didn’t get to experience that side of life.

Because I was the kid they wish they had aborted, I spent far to many days scared and beaten…

Because I was nobody’s kid, I was everyone’s sex toy and punching bag…

Then I stepped out of your shadow.

I grew up and I became their mom…

Because I was their mom and I was young confused and hurt, it didn’t work out with their dad, I loved them every day.

Because I was their mom and their dad abandoned them, I learned from your mistakes.

They were shown unconditional love, I told them stories of their dad and tried to keep contact…I showed them pictures so they would know they were born out of love.

Because I was your kid I was still angry, hurt and broken, but because I was their mom I was determined to heal & they wouldn’t let me fail.

Because I was their mom I took a deep look in and learned to heal myself for them and more importantly me.

Because they are my kids I broke the cycle.

Because they are my kids and I am their mom I found my strength was always a deep love for myself.

Finally because I was their mom and they were my kids I learned what love truly means.

Because I healed as I grew older I learned to forgive you for the things you did, while you weren’t being my father. I learned and understood you were hurt & broken too.

Because I am a mom who was a broken child, now with children. I took another look at my mom and I forgave and understood my mom loved me and did what you could and at least she stayed and tried although she was hurt and broken too.

Because they are my kids, they will succeed and do far better then I did.

Because they are my kids, when and if they have kids they will start a new cycle. One where childhoods are filled with nurturing and love, they will grow up and old with love and healing.

This is the way of the new world.

Right now I still see people bitching about customer service reps at stores and restaurants I ask you to please realize most of these people work for minimum wage or below.. they are usually broke, scared and stressed over whats going on.

If you take the time to be extra kind and to talk to them you will realize that while they watch everyone else stock up on the essentials.

They get no special treatment so they see all the supplies flying off the shelf and they have to wait until payday to buy knowing it’s running out, they worry about their children, families and friends.

They are younger or have stressful lives before the virus where financial ends have never met.

So now they are really going through it instead of complaining about how they messed up and how they were short with you, try doing something nice or even just being kind…

Kindness and love go further then hate in any scenario.

Choose not to be an asshole right now.. literally everyone is feeling this!

And for all the light workers wishing the virus on people who don’t read it the way you do… I have no words but thank you for showing us who you truly are.

Everyone else breath I know this can be terrifying but many of us instinctively know how to survive through this and worse because of the abuse and pain we have endured growing up..

It isn’t the first time we have gone without, it isn’t the first time we have been scared. Remember everything you have survived we are warriors and we will get through this too.

Reach out help where you can, pull money out of the bank now to keep at home.

Take this time to be mindful and appreciate the beautiful little moments your given.

I love you all keep your hearts pure!

Wash your hands

Love Tami Irizarry