Every upbringing where you heard even once these words even if said in different ways. The meaning is always similar.

1. Stop your crying or I’ll give you something to cry about. This shows a child if you show release emotions you get hurt or in trouble, so instead you learn to suppress emotions.
2. Do what I say and don’t question me. That says don’t think, I tell you what to think and do. If you don’t listen or if you ask why you are going to get in trouble and that may hurt.
3. Don’t speak back to adults. It says you are not important your thoughts feelings and emotions don’t matter, the behavior and actions of the adult in question don’t matter. The only thing that matters is he is better then you.
4. Parents say go give aunt, uncle, grandparent, cousin, family friends a hug or a kiss. The child says no I don’t want to, please I don’t like it. The child now gets reprimanded, in trouble and forced to do so regardless that they didn’t want to. Now the child knows even if it feels wrong they have to do it because it’s expected and when they said please no it didn’t matter they got in trouble. So the child learns to ignore their own feelings and knowings they must sacrifice themselves to make others comfortable or there are consequences.
5. Now this #4 is a problem and a huge one. The parents didn’t realize the child wasn’t comfortable because the adult they didn’t want to give affection to was the same adult; who when the child was at there house they taught the child a new secret game. The child new the game was bad and it felt wrong and it made them feel sick. The child also knew that when they tried to talk or show emotions to get help it didn’t matter, they got in trouble for that too. Now the child in a certain ways gives up trying and just allows it because it is just easier then the pain that comes when they try to get help.

So parents & adults please stop and understand what has been done to us. Now look at what you may be continuing to do to your children, without even realizing. It stops at home!

You can blame me for speaking truth you aren’t ready to hear.

For making the cloudiness of the veil all too clear.

For not allowing you to lie or manipulate me.

For bringing clarity with a loud boom, which crashes through all the lies you speak.

You can blame me for caring more about you more then you do yourself, for not caring about worldly possessions over your heart and spiritual wealth.

You can blame me for pointing out only the facts.

For speaking on the right and wrong and not taking it back.

For speaking up and out for justice in a world that stopped caring.

Lay it all on me I’ll bare the burden of truth.

Here’s the facts.

I’m not sorry and I’ll never take it back.

I won’t sit in ignorance pretending nothings wrong, in a world where people rather die instead of returning home.

Home was supposed to be a safe haven… almost heaven like in the ways of love.

I can only speak for me when I say it was nothing like the statement I made above.

I AM NOT SORRY, I didn’t become who you wanted me to be.

I may be a product of you, but I was always meant to be me.

I am not sorry for the life that I lived, I will no longer apologize for my existence.

If you don’t like who I became, well sorry to say…. To all parents.

YOU ALONE Chose the partner, had the sex, kept the pregnancy, taught and molded me, you raised this kid. It’s time to ask yourself why you don’t like what you see?

All that I learned was what was available to me, all of my traits I copied from you as I grew into me. Children are a product of their environment so now ask yourself what environment did you give to create me?

We can all try and pretend, leave the past in the past and never talk again I’m fine with that.

I won’t lie and pretend it’s okay when I fight every day to battle the hate you send when you look my way, think of my name or see my face.

Especially when in reality it’s your own personal anger and rage… your mad because I’m not your ideal, truth be told it’s not hard to heal.

However it is hard to take a look inside, you may come to find the face you look to hate is yours not truly mine.

I try and try and tried again realistically if there was any chance of hope, I will try until your dying day.

I can’t force you to open up so instead, I leave you in nothing but love, if we never speak again… I hope this crosses your path because when I leave this time without a miracle I won’t be looking back.

I will keep marching forward and carry you in my heart waiting for the day to come when we no longer have to be apart.

I don’t blame you I haven’t for years, I only wished you could see it from my side too just as I forced myself to do it with you.

I hope you find peace within your mind and comfort in your heart, I hope you’re surrounded by those you need to keep you from falling apart. I hope you forgive yourself for all you allowed and maybe one day you will finally be proud.

I won’t apologize for who I have become, I have made my mistakes and paid for each and every one. I have walked the line and looked inside I destroyed my heart and shattered my pride.

I took all the pain that I had held and I picked it apart and found the story waiting to unfold. I began to make sense of a world that doesn’t make sense to me and through the pain I found the map that set me free.

I stepped out of my life and became an observer of it all and I watch as history continues to repeat as so many force themselves to repeat it all. So afraid of being alone they choose the abuse because it has become all that is known.

So here is my personal rise to the call!

I don’t blame you for anything anymore our story ends here for now.

I am now mother and I too have created pain and trauma within my children. Although I never intended which is why it’s so easy for me to forgive you.

Only here is where my focus is…

I’m not afraid to say I hurt my kids, I taught them wrong things as I also did that best that I could. I’m not afraid to admit I was wrong or to look at myself and take accountability and for that I am strong.

I’m also aware that the journey is their own, I only wish to walk independently aside them and repair the foundation of this broken home, brick by brick, piece by piece, heart to heart. I know that my sentence is patience since I caused the pain in them I don’t get to say when it starts.

Now as a mom this part gets hard, as a person I also have my own heart. So here it gets tricky so give me a moment to break it down so you understand the components.

Hurt people hurt people, healing people heal people. To hurt people, it feels like healing people cause pain.. why because being it forces you to see that you also may be to blame for why things aren’t the way you want them to be. It doesn’t allow you to sit in a place of ignorance and bliss pretending you just don’t see. So it is not my place to force it to be.

I sit with hope that a day will come when you will be ready for more and when you do, you will find me there holding open the door.

I won’t beg you or bother you.. I will promise you and always remind you that you’re never truly alone and when you come knocking you will find that in my arms is always your home.

I don’t care to judge you trust me I understand, I have been there too so I won’t lie I am simply a huMan and I too have a dark side. The only difference is I picked mine apart I am clearing all that isn’t me away to find the brilliance of my heart.

The lies you tell you tell for yourself I understand that too, in a world built on deceit it’s what you’re forced to eat when you rely on the material world to fill the void inside.

That’s not the world where I want to live so this is the last thing I’m sorry for when it comes to me… I can’t play stupid when I see the truth, I won’t lie or pretend it’s not happening, I won’t stand for injustice so that I can remain untouched. I don’t blame anyone for what they have to do to survive the day. I do ask that you don’t blame me for trying to create a better way.

For me there is another way, yes it is lonely and yes I cry but I won’t give up, I will always try and until my time comes.

I rather be alone in my authenticity then allow another to speak hate to me or over me when it is not in truth. I have no issue taking the blame give it all to me so I can learn to but make sure when you do it’s in nothing less then absolute truth.

I have enough burdens to bare alone. All I ask is when you approach come with only truth and a willingness to grow because the truth is I need you I can’t do it alone.

I love you with all that I am, I don’t want anything from you other then what you want to share with me. I love you for you as I love me for me.

I won’t dim my light, I won’t hide my weird and I also won’t destroy your life by having you be associated with the likes of me…

So in the background of your world I exist creating my dreams of a world where we are free to simply be. I’ll protect my bubble and when we float by each other I’ll send you all the love you need.

I do not believe in coincidences, I believe in cause, effect and energy..

I believe each action causes a reaction and the reaction is what we could view as karma..

A direct result of a conscious choice… (irregardless of the intentions and understanding of the consequences).

Each person has the opportunity to affect the lives of someone they have never shared a personal space with or spoken too.

With there action a reaction which pushes the next action and reaction and so on and so forth… like a domino effect or wildfire it spreads.

I also believe that we are currently living in our own personal Hell specially crafted with the exact circumstances needed to give us a real shot to see the truth, ultimately freeing ourselves from the toxic cycles that keep us locked in.

With that being said I believe humans were intentionally deceived and led to worship the devil while calling him God without their knowledge.

I believe we are viewed by those is control as little more than cash cows.. it’s a wildly profitable industry that benefits off of our ignorance, complacency and laziness in pursuit of the truth.

We allow those in control to dangle shiny distractions as we feed ourselves with their intentionally poisoned food and watch their intentionally directed television shows designed to keep us distracted.

When it all falls apart we turn to a church that tells you to worship god and how to live a life of virtue and you run all in, trusting blindly only coming to realize that even though you followed all they said to do, you didn’t get into heaven you came back to do it all again.

Finding they gave you only what they wanted you to have, not what you truly needed to save your soul, it was partial and intentionally altered information.

We go to the doctors believing they have our best interest at heart and then they prescribe toxic drugs to fill a void left by a broken and corrupt world. Knowing that it could and would lead to far worse side effects. They kept from us the medicines nature provided in order to profit.

If we could begin to understand all the emotions and thoughts we have, if we could learn to communicate without blame, defense or judgement and begin holding those in power accountable we could build bridges to solving the issues.

The faster we can see it’s a working machine that is working against us. The closer we will be to changing the world we live in.

So no I do not believe in coincidences…. I believe in myself, /universe/energy/nature/higher power/ alpha & omega/source/Christ consciousness, you, the future, giving and receiving the necessary information to have a fighting chance.

I believe in divine guidance that leads us in the right direction, truth, signs and serendipity……

I believe in understanding emotions and learning to clearly, openly & honestly communicate from the heart. I believe in teaching the difference between comprehension and listening.

No I do not believe in coincidences. I absolutely believe in and trust myself with me. I absolutely believe & trust in you to know what is right for you, isn’t it time you did too? I trust in the unknown with all I am. I believe in love and love is the way to change!

Let’s have this discussion now once and for all, lets be open and honest. Let’s begin to listen and understand the different levels of perception and understanding we are all on.

While some will say to keep positive is to be all love & light. Asking you to keep the vibe high.. while you’re emotionally in pain only hurts us deeper in the long run. We just continue to suppress the emotions. When we do that we stop ourselves from reaching the level where we hold people accountable, we get stuck in cycles.

Let’s be honest people are notorious for making excuses instead of changes… because it’s comfortable enough to stay, but painful enough to complain so they become victims.

We yes we as healers, friends, family or lovers get sick of hearing it we’ve been there already and we understand exactly what’s happening. To be honest no one can save you but you and It’s draining to be around. Especially after I find myself repeatedly saying the same thing.

While you find yourself stuck we have kept on healing and progressing so we clearly see and know it can and must be done. We also know we can’t do it for you, only you can change it. Where once we have been kind and understanding even empathetic and patient to your problems. Now we know you’re choosing.

Yes now you’re making a choice, you’re choosing to stay where you are; so while you some say people are assholes or are gas lighting or triggering you, understand what is actually happening.

We those who care are simply sick of you wasting our energy & time. Countless hours we have given you freely, listening to you crying to us about the shitty things in your life.

Simply put we were there once too we made the changes and healed, you can too! Simply put do it or don’t but stop whining, shit or get off the pot you’re holding up space and someone that wants to make the change is waiting so move on…. all in love and light of course no harm intended just truth.

Those who refuse to make the changes for themselves are being assisted, situations and people are being removed for your higher good.

Either way the bottom line is this- no one can trigger what you’ve worked through fully. If you’re being triggered go back and clear it out; find out what still needs to be worked on. No one said perfection they only asked for progress.

Now that you know better do better!

I could lie to you, fluff and appease your ego, telling you how wrong they are to make you realize the truth. Much like everyone else you surround yourself with does, those who allow you to remain comfortably numb.

For me to do that wouldn’t be in alignment with my truth so I won’t.

I rather hurt your feelings in love then watch you die in a lie. Let’s be realistic those who choose to not say anything to you well it’s easier than being the bad guy and forcing you to see the part you play in your life.

Why because they don’t want to become the next victim of your victim mentality and slander crusade that usually follows in vain.

If I did that I wouldn’t be helping you at all. I simply wouldn’t be true to my calling in life. I wouldn’t be a healer at all I would allow you to blindly believe that you’re right; as I watch you miss all the opportunities to actually make it right and free yourself.

The reality is you create your life.. hard to accept I know, but there is no one left to blame. You didn’t cause the pain that broke and made you this way, it’s true you didn’t deserve it; that doesn’t change anything, it is still absolutely your responsibility to fix it now that you know.

Once you as an adult are made aware of the conflicts and issues between you and others, it is absolutely your own responsibility to handle your portion and take accountability.

It’s your responsibility to try to understand why.. why you get triggered or respond in certain ways. It is then your responsibility to heal and learn better ways to handle your emotions.

If you’re not willing to do so because you don’t care to I can understand your point.

However I cannot allow you to take advantage, be toxic, be manipulative, or a crappy person, without forcing your hand to take accountability for your actions… and remain in my life as you currently are.

I shouldn’t be expected to accept toxic behavior. I Set clear boundaries and expectations, then enforce them and hold the person accountable.

As parents how often do we mess up and throw out idle threats to control a situation Only to not consistently follow through.

Now this is the cycle we have helped to continue, its a consequence to not holding people accountable.

It is also a cycle we must break. In a world of hurt people, it has been easier to let others be crappy and treat us poorly. We get frustrated but we just chalk it off to a bad day. We continue to look the other way instead of facing the issue and taking the stress of being the “bad” guy by speaking up about it.

When we aren’t doing the right thing, or have forgotten our way.. it is time to be held accountable, and to be made aware of our actions.

It is time to set clear boundaries and expectations, time for clear conversations and a different level to comprehension!

We need to have the hard talks from a place of love without defensiveness or judgement. Continuing to allow the behavior and looking the other way because it’s easy is the problem.

Only you can break the cycles and make the change. Change begins at home and revolution begins as a whisper.

Remember the days of open discussions?? Where we could throw back and forth ideas… you know philosophical conversations! Can we bring them back and truly utilize our knowledge to make a change?!

We can discuss.. how the majority of minds are trapped in a human system which has honestly trained the brain to be lazy, you were taught what to think not how to think.

We were told what was what and not to question, so there was no real truth or structure that was useful in communication.

On top of not understanding emotions and feelings and how to properly explain what we’re experiencing without fear of judgement, shame and isolation.

Judgment from a society of people who have no place to judge, no one has all the needed and necessary information to judge another.

We could discuss the fact that no two people are actually alike at all not in thought, mind, body or soul but we are all connected by heart..

Yet most judge and shame themselves and each other for differences……

Isn’t it time we go deeper and change it for real? It’s not enough to say change is coming now change is here.

Calling the New Ancestors!
We are bringing together a group talented, gifted empowering woman & men who are changing the way we live! First in their everyday lives and then spreading it like wildfire!

Everyday people just like you and me!

We’re bringing together an abundance of skills, talents and gifts to share with you!! We have independently found a better way and we invite you to join us as your path unfolds!

We are here to nurture, nature, nourish as we empower your mind, body & soul!

We know how hard life can hit and we have all fallen down! There is no place for blame and judgement. Only
understanding and true SOULutions!

We are here to love you from pieces back to whole.
We see who you truly are, it’s time to shine again!

Perception is not fact, so how do we decide whose perception is right and whose is wrong?

Perspective is funny because simply put, it may be different; yet equally valid to each of us.

Perspective by definition is a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view.

Perception by definition is

the ability to see, hear, or become aware of something through the senses.”the normal limits to human perception”

• the state of being or process of becoming aware of something through the senses.”the perception of pain”

• a way of regarding, understanding, or interpreting something; a mental impression.”Hollywood’s perception of the tastes of the American public”

intuitive understanding and insight.”“He wouldn’t have accepted,” said my mother with unusual perception”

Some conversations are better left unspoken I’ve learned. If one has no intellectual capability then there is no way perception will be open enough to even decipher the message.

Mother’s don’t have all the answers and sometimes mother’s make mistakes.

This life isn’t an easy one but if you’re lucky enough to find a couple of messed up mommy’s to stand by your side you stand a fighting chance.

The mother’s club

What if there could be a better way? One where we didn’t come in setup to suffer because of where we were placed?

Aren’t you tired of walking around scared to lose everything you’ve worked for in the drop of a dime?

What would life be?

If your basic necessities were absolutely met?

If you didn’t have to fear losing your home due to the inability to pay a ridiculous amount of money every month?

If you were sure no matter what there was a hot healthy meal available for you 3 times a day?

If you were sure you would always have access to fresh fruit veggies and water at no cost?

What would life be

If you worked your 40+ hours a week to enhance your life rather then merely working to survive?

If the money you earned went to travel and pleasure, growth and enhancement?

Working to upgrade your life sounds better then working to simply survive!

What if?

There was a way to level the playing field and begin to right the wrongs of the past?

What if there was a basic way to begin to give & get back what had been taken from us?

What if we were actually given the ability to reach for the stars with an actual way to grab them??

What if I told you I found the way to lead us into a brighter tomorrow!

Why can’t we issue Everyone a basic domicile?

Each standard dwelling is issued absolutely at no cost it stays in the family permanently.

Transferring to the first child of age that is in need of their own domicile upon death of an elder.

Children receive their own permanent domicile at the age of 25 when they have reached optimal emotional and mental maturity.

Each family that is already established receives a dwelling appropriate to their family size.

Each member of a already created family over the age of 25 receives a domicile of their own to begin their own journey.

It is the shared responsibility of all members of the family to care and look after the elderly of the family until they should cross over, as it is the shared responsibility to guide and protect each other young and old alike.

Since all of your basic necessities are met there is no excuse as to why your duty to family will not be fulfilled.

Should you not wish to provide this care, the family is not required to interact with you as you have chosen to not fulfill the familial obligations.

Should they choose to interact with you after you have made your choice to independently live.

These is no place for judgement or resentment and must understand this decision was yours alone.

This decision can always be reversed if you should find the choice you made no longer aligns with what you desire.

Each new family is given a 2 bedroom domicile upon creation of a child so they may choose to coexist.

This we call the family bonding spot, each young adult will also keep their original domicile as they are only transferred at death.

This provides each person the ability to move freely without the feeling or the fear of being trapped.

These domiciles are basic but they are yours and will always be yours. They meet all basic requirements and come with food. Your basic necessities as a human are no longer your worry or concern.

Now if you have already excelled above this need.. CONGRATULATIONS! Rest assured if at any point you should meet hard times you will be provided the same comforts. We are aware life has speed bumps and resets to place things back in order. You are not forgotten and if hard times should befall you, you’re supported and protected.

Now if you desire more… CONGRATULATIONS STRIVE FOR IT!!!! WORK FOR IT!!! DREAM IT!! ACHIEVE IT!!!!

There is every possible job imaginable available to help support your dreams and desires!

You desire another child? Upgrade to a dwelling that can accommodate another or choose to coshare. However at the third child you will have to upgrade at your cost.

There will be requirements to become a parent.

You will be required to show the desire and readiness to become a parent.

You will be required to go to counseling and school.

Where you will be guided through how to care for a child. Taught everything from the basics to how to handle change and stresses that may arise.

You will be counseled for any trauma experienced currently or in the past as we do not want to transfer these cycles any further.

You will be shown ways to encourage your child to learn to think for themselves and understand how they feel and identify emotions properly.

You will be required to show the ability to maintain a job to provide for the child, their necessities above food and shelter are now absolutely your responsibility in all aspects and must be divided by both parents.

This doesn’t mean solely monetary. This means there must be equal and right support from both parents in which ever ways works for those parents. Figure out what works for everyone, just make it make sense. It is not up to anyone else to decide.

However the financial need must be met. It will be needed as you will be expected to provide activities and experiences for your child to help them find their true passion.

You will be observed as your desire to succeed in these lessons will match your desire and readiness to become a parent.

Medical care is a basic necessity and right it will be provided to you at no cost, in a holistic form of treatment. We want to heal you and support you not poison you. You are not here to be profited off of.

Mental & spiritual support is a basic necessity and a right it will also be provided for you at no cost.

Older basic vehicles appropriate to family size will be given to those in need free of cost it is a basic right to travel freely.

Much like with the domicile you will find the same reoccurring principle with the vehicle.

Want different, bigger, better, newer… work for it!

Cannabis will be legalized, decriminalized and distributed unrestricted and in its natural state freely.

Anyone in prison for non violent drug crimes will be released immediately and given a domicile upon completion of a reentry transitional healing house.

The transitional housing is mandatory and there is no time limit as to how long healing takes there are no restrictions on time. However there are basic requirements one must meet.

Your freedom was ripped from you for doing something that was always right and provided to you freely that causes deep trauma and pain.

There are obvious intentional pain and trauma you had to endure which effects one on a mental, emotional & spiritual level you will be shown how to heal that and how to use what you have learned to make your life a success.

Time was stolen from you we can’t give it back and the world continues on. We understand that and are here to help you find your abilities and a way for you to find the right job for you if you should want to achieve more. However we do also recognize time is money and you will be compensated for the time you spent locked away.

We will use a very simple and just formula to find the appropriate compensation for your time, your natural ability transferred into a job skill= the ability to determine the pay rate of job skill= your value

the amount of time served in your life collectively committing similar non violent drug crime= your determination

Your value is variable A

Your determination is variable B

A+B= X

Variable X is your measurable success in follow through= ambition

A+b x X= Y

The Y variable is simply put you! Your value or determinable worth in society.

X+Y=Z

The Z variable is now your compensation

Now we use the formula again in another way

The A compensation rate + B time served x X

X is a standard 40hours x 52 weeks= 2080 hours annually.

A+BxX=Z

The Z variable is now the amount of compensation you can expect in a lump sum for what could have been achieved had you been able to live freely as intended.