They call us victims and truth is we are… they hurt, lie, destroy and manipulate affecting our lives for their own benefit.

With zero regard to how we would be affected, we were the victims. Into silence we were shamed because we loved them and wanted to be loved to be accepted by them.

We allowed them to do whatever because we really loved and didn’t know any better. We were children learning, we learned to do as we were told.

We paid the ultimate price holding all the secrets we never told.

We with our children had to live with the repercussions of their actions and our lives were extremely negatively impacted.

We were set up way below the bar of a normal healthy stable starting point in life many of us struggle to achieve what everyone else was helped to achieve and already received a stable foundation.

Instead of love, understanding and help we received the blame, shame, judgment, negativity, guilt, hate and shit talking all over our innocent names.

You threw us away instead of facing your shame and taking the blame it’s because of you it started this way, no heat we were so overcome in pain we had no way to even begin to think of an escape.

We had no idea of what was happening to us this had been the only way of life and love we’ve ever known, we had no one else this was our home.

We didn’t know we were allowed to take back control of ourselves and our lives and make it our own!

I’ve been blamed my whole life now I’m proud to be the villain, truth will be spoken. In case you haven’t realized silent children grow up to be loud adults looking for justice!

She was all I ever wanted…
She took my breath away the second I looked into her eyes I knew I was done for, I didn’t realize I was suffocating on bullshit.

Was it her green ever changing eyes that had captivated me from the very instant they met mine or was it her smile that screamed of cocky arrogance, confidence, fear and uncertainty all in one?

Her hair was long and curly always pulled back with a fitted cap because god forbid the slightest bit of femininity come through where she can prevent it because she wants the world to see her as anything other than weak damaged broken or fragile but that is exactly who she is and I saw it right away.

I was more than content to be her safety and she was protective and strong all the same it was a beautiful disaster right from the start and I was trapped in this illusion, that her and I could conquer it all. That love would prevail and integrity would save us all.

I trusted her from the very start like I had trusted no one before and she played on my kindness and my love. I almost killed myself destroying everything else trying to save her from herself.

I was so lost in her I had become a stranger to myself and everyone I loved. I had no idea I had destroyed me to save her, I was alone scared abused and calling out for help.

I called for you but you didn’t hear me even when you were looking right at me. So many promises broken this once amazing empire had been ripped apart piece by piece and you didn’t even care to stop it from being completely demolished.

Instead you blamed me for reacting and releasing all the pain and trauma you gave to me. I pleaded for truth and love you laughed and continued the gaslighting and mind games I was no longer naive I was no longer the same.

No one was coming I had to save myself.

I started fighting back and recording her, I made sure to check facts and keep proof, the worst part is when I confronted her.. she laughed and admitted she knew exactly what she was doing it was intentional and deliberate.

One person alone cannot save a relationship. She was the only one who had the power to stop us from falling apart but instead of taking accountability she was too busy trying to place blame and convince the three of us who loved her most that we were the problem.

It wasn’t the fact that she gave all of her love and attention to pills. Percocet mattered not us I was simply a way for her to get what she needed for a temporary relief from the pain.

She wasn’t alone in this pain I lived it too abusive childhoods is something we both knew all to well, still I was there reassuring her always by her side but she came and went and I grew tired of being cold and alone. Our house was more of a battlefield than a home and with her I was bad for everybody.

Especially the kids I saw changes in them. I didn’t understand those changes came from living in our home of toxicity drug addiction is death to family.

I didn’t understand the ones who paid for all of our hell and trauma were my babies the only two people I had vowed to love and protect.

This wasn’t love and I was not allowing my choices to hurt them anymore. I had to leave I went to the door.

The abuse I endured while fighting to save her was more then any one person, child or family should have to be go through. She was toxic af and would do what ever she had to as long as she got what she wanted it doesn’t matter who she hurt.

Staying with you would have cost me my life I was trapped in your web of manipulation and lies. I was so foolish I believed it was love that entire time, yet I constantly felt like I was losing my mind.

I saw the faces of my babies and I stood up and wiped myself off I couldn’t allow this to be all they saw when they thought of love. They deserve better and for them to understand they have to see it from me.

I was done with you laughing as you played with my heart and mind, bringing me to my knees making cry as you took all you wanted. So I focused on me and my best life I finally started.

I found the strength to cut you off and heal me. I walked away and started to create the life of my dreams. That must have killed a you because you came in hard with full Intent to destroy me.

News flash baby you didn’t succeed. You will always be fake and I will always be me.

Now I speak up to educate others and set them free. No one deserves to live a life that isn’t based in reality, if it’s all lies what’s the point that isn’t love it’s simply a game.

We call out abuse over here, we see the damage it caused all to clear, we stand up for our children, the toxicity ends here. GAME OVER. SNAP BACK TO REALITY. THERE IS A BETTER WAY FOR EVERYONE ITS STARTS WITH INTEGRITY, TRUTH & HONESTY !