child abuse

Would you spend time with your family if they weren’t related to you?

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Love is unconditional acceptance of bad behavior is not. Don’t try me you better save that shit for someone else.

You may be the problem if you’r ridiculous whining and carrying on, crying, shouting and throwing a fit when you’re asked to do what’s right, or don’t get your way. Honestly it’s embarrassing and disgusting at your age, you’re not a child.

Your parents, friends, lovers and family allow your shitty behaviors simply because they don’t want to hear your mouth, your behaviors are toxic.

They give you what you want to shut you up and we’re all fully aware. They also do it out of guilt, there’s a good chance they didn’t do a good job as parents and you probably remind them of themselves.

That’s wonderful if they are good people!! Now if they’re are not good people and they have no issue because you’re like them take a look at your life and ask some questions.

You may be the problem.

The thing is you don’t have to choose to be a shitty person, it’s a choice you literally have to go out of your way to be an asshole so understand we’re fully aware of who you are and what you do.

People like this are fully aware of it and will openly admit that they’re assholes and shit starters because they think it’s funny.

The truth is they’re a cancer in this society and everything wrong with this world.

So I will gladly keep my title of black sheep and problem child. I will wear that badge with pride as I realize I’m nothing like you. I speak truth in order to bring change, I don’t talk shit to cause pain.

We are not the same if you play sick mind games.

Silence is killing our children and all that’s good to you while you keep doing what you want to.

Love wins as we call out all the bullshit, lies, manipulation and games.

This is our world and we’re done with willful ignorance, intentional pain and abuse. It’s time for you to learn, this world has turned into a new way of life. Learn the rules or be left behind it’s no longer your way at all cost.

This life is all of ours and it’s time for the divine love to rise as we take back what belongs to us all. Love Liberty and Justice for all not just some.

Where’s the humanity switch?

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I think it would be easier to endure this life if I turned mine off.

How can one be expected to continue to care in a world that is cold?

When you continue to approach all with total love and zero expectations and they continue to go out of their way to cause pain.

This is their sick game, they feel inferior so they intend to spread pain it makes them feel powerful this is how we end these ways.

The self proclaimed assholes of society whose only purpose is to cause chaos for chaos’s sake you have been identified as the issue.

There’s a difference between those who speak truth and hold others accountable, we do it to end the toxicity and finally bring change.

We are labeled as assholes or trouble wrongfully, what we are is tired of the bullshit, the mind games and manipulation.

We’re tired of watching you get away with all of your shitty ways while we are given the blame and pain.

So this is the only warning we are now calling out your games.

This is the way we bring humanity back, we have to care enough about one another to no longer allow bad behaviors to continue.

Silence is deadly.

How can we continue to not only love you, yet care about you when you continually show us you do not value us?

If you valued those in your life, you wouldn’t intentionally cause them pain. You would show them that you care for and about them.

You would be available when they need you as you want them available for you when you need them.

However this society has become so one sided.

We live in an extremely selfish time, where it is come up at any cost no matter the destruction that’s left behind.

Most want what they want and don’t ever care to think of how that affects anyone else.

They do as they please and take all they can but who is there when you need a helping hand?

Love shouldn’t be a one way street we should care for each other equally of course there are times when we cannot be what others need us to be and that is always okay.

It’s wise to treat others with the same care you want in return, please understand that undervaluing someone you care for will come with some understanding yet understanding only extends so far when we’re being affected by your bad habits.

You may come to find that when you need us we have walked away not because we don’t love you but in your pain we couldn’t stay.

Now this isn’t saying allow yourself to be used this is simply saying don’t abuse what you don’t want to lose.

Realize that while things sometimes won’t fully match the ones you took for granted it’s because you assumed we would always have your back, we would have until we found it was human decency and truth you lack.

Willful ignorance

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Could if I would be any other way, STOP! That isn’t true. Why are these the words I choose to say?

I think it’s because of societal standards and beliefs, they break us down those who don’t fit in and at times it can make me wish I didn’t exist.

Yet I know better. What they say, feel or think about me or you should make no difference.

Most people are unhappy and too busy lying to themselves,the only way they feel better about their lives is to make others feel like less.

Yet it still causes pain, the beliefs and thoughts that most hold so dear. Money is king, get to the top at all cost. No matter who is trampled on, no matter what the loss.

There must be a better way. New generations no longer have to learn through pain.

We can stop saying and doing things that we know intentionally cause harm. Willful ignorance isn’t an excuse we’re accepting anymore. Take no shit but cause no harm.

I killed a part of myself today

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I killed a part of myself today yet not in a usual way, no one took notice I’m sad to say.

I can’t blame them the part of me that died today no one else knew existed it was the part of me that came alive when I was with you. You didn’t know it happened and you will never mourn because you walked away from me after telling me you loved me and you would always be there.

I had already learned that your actions and your words rarely ring true. It was the same pattern that had been shown to me so many times before not only by you, truthfully by everyone who had ever walked through a door and into my life.

I had to wonder if it was me and took a good look at my time here.

I realized i was damaged by the traumas of the past.

I loved to much and I cared to deeply, love was always looking to protect the ones who wished to destroy and deceive me.

Love to me isn’t a game like many who chose to play it believe it be.

Love is a bond built on truth and vulnerability how can I trust me with you when you don’t even know what love is supposed to do?

How can I simply be me when you get threatened by what that means for you? We are not the same you’re here to play games and I seek truth and clarity I don’t give a damn what this world thinks of me.

This isn’t a popularity contest to me it’s about living my truth authentically.

Big money fast cars and some bling on your arm doesn’t mean shit when you have all that chaos on your mind and in your heart.

The path to redemption begins in your soul, it brings you back to the past to understand how you became the person you are.

A deep truth and personal accountability is needed if you are to get past this part.

The past is hard and no one wants to admit it but we have all fucked up it’s time to go back to the beginning. Once we understand how it came to be we can begin the undoing of the trauma and set ourselves free.

If you’re seeing this it’s meant for you too!!! ♾🤍

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Dear me,

I am so proud of you!!

What I’ve watched you go through, the heart break and suffering in silence, you’ve fought your way through it all!

You searched for a better way and kept your heart pure. You made your focus on true love and what is right for all. You kept unconditional love, understanding and concern in your heart and lived it at all times.

You never judged another you simply tried to understand the differences and respected everyone equally and their ways, understanding your way isn’t the only way and that is just fine.

I know you’re scared and tired. I know you feel like this pain will never end, I know in your heart and soul you can’t accept that to be the truth.

I’m so proud of you because it wasn’t for nothing and dreams do come true.

The pain is coming to an end it’s the Dawn of Anew way forward together!

New days are here. Those with pure hearts please lift your heads once and for all.

You’re divinely protected in the heart of infinite love.

I AM is here.

The days in life when things changed forever.

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There are specific days in my life that stay with me always. They are the days I look on and wish I had known then what I now know. These days are the days I trusted in others to tell me what made sense and I was striving to do better, be better and give my children a better chance at a bright future. This day in particular became the pinnacle of my destruction.

Kristy I thought was different everyone liked her, she was fun and outgoing. Kristy seemed responsible she had a good job, her family was in her life and she was pursuing me. I had just left an abusive relationship with a control freak who was a manipulative cheater and an emotional abuser so Kristy stepped in like a breath of fresh air.

I was so blinded.

I had friends or so I had thought, it turns out this would be a most valuable lesson. People don’t do what’s right they typically don’t care what’s right they do what is socially acceptable.

Allow me to explain. I was living a decent life abuse had been something I had always known. Even with my diagnosis’s I was fighting for my life, it was suddenly falling into place. I had just been awarded my social security disability and I had a nice rental home for me and the kids, I was surrounded by what I believed we’re friends and family that cared for us.

Yet no one, not one of the people who called my children their niece and nephew thought to warn me. Kristy was a convicted felon multiple times over and a active alcoholic and crack smoker/drug user. I was naive to say the very least and alcoholics were not new to me so I saw it as normal and she hid the drug use.

As the relationship progressed I ignored the red flags, my daughter hated her I thought it was preteen angst. I was selfish and wanted peace, happiness and stability for my children and myself. Kristy was right there promising the sun, moon and stars. Little did I know how she and her family would spend our entire relationship tearing us down, emotionally and mentally abusing us, while stealing everything I had and mentally destroying me.

The worst part is it was all avoidable, at any point anyone of my best friends who claimed to love us and who knew her and her family personally could have said Tami she isn’t good for you. Yet not one did and I understand oh it’s no ones place however innocent children were there so yes as humans it was absolutely the time and place to speak up.

Silence prevailed.

So when Kristy suggested we move into her parents home to save money to buy a house and start our lives, I felt it was an absolute blessing! It was perfect her parents had a 3 bedroom apartment in the basement of their home and we wouldn’t be charged rent. I gave up my rental and we moved. This is where I went wrong.

Once I left my freedom, giving up my independence and trusting the words she was saying. I was sitting on 15,000 cash from back pay with social security and I was on over 18 different medications for my mental health. I was doing the best I could to recover from my past and how it was supposed to be my time to finally give my kids the life they deserved. We moved into Kristys parents house.

Life went dark almost immediately and Kristy became a completely different person we took control of all of the money and food became scarce she was working all the time so I didn’t understand.

She was drinking more and more and becoming cruel and angry all of the time. She took control of my child support and social security and convinced me that we didn’t need my car because I drove hers and she had the work truck so I listened to her and sold my vehicle. She instantly took the money.

I was stuck and didn’t have the proper help to leave it was a bad situation to a bad situation, I had no safe place to run. Life was unhealthy for me. I’m writing this and it is hard but has to be written. Ladies and men please find the knowledge and wisdom within this.

Love doesn’t hurt. Love is never manipulating. Love is not controlling. When it is love it heals and helps. Love never destroys, love is not toxic. Any one who secludes you from family or friends seeks to control you by controlling who influences you. They wish to keep you only listening to them so that you stay ignorant to what they’re doing. please don’t let yourself become a victim.

Looking back now I see the pattern and all of us face it, one way or another the point is we no longer have to. If we can identify these behaviors we can prevent destruction. If we warn each other we can help to heal this world instead of watching idly by as good people become victims to the evil ways of narcissistic people.

Mental health

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I suffered a mental health crisis during a pandemic and became homeless without any warning.

I’m so afraid to open my mouth to speak

What if the words that come out escape me

What if I lose control and speak a language that nobody knows

What if I start again speaking in tongues how long before the law man comes

How long before I’m locked away in another place for the mentally spiritually insane

Perception is funny especially when based in fact to the one who speaks truth

The one who can choose to see only facts

When the emotions are removed in pursuit of a deeper truth

Which ways to seek the right and wrong of a world where justice doesn’t only not prevail but intentionally fails

Truth seekers are punished and shamed all so they can hold on to the old ways

Morals and values based on what system when the words they teach are spun into webs to connect the lies they force you to respect

Protect and serve oh lord the nerve

Only with the right color and right social status do they care

Anything less then white or wealthy is undesirable so trust in your ruin they won’t fail

They blame for acting out but no one wonders why or what brought it about

Lock you up and throw away the key that’s what they do even when you believe your free

Source of it all on you I do call tell me how to proceed when I’m so scared of another fall

Absolutely terrified to be myself I’ve walked so many times through these levels of hell now I’m lost

The wrong one not a son unwanted daughter of that one

How to leave the pain behind when I am so scared to step outside

Some would say paranoid but that isn’t the case

I learned first hands what it feels like to have them bruise your face heart and soul and smile at you as they do it because they know

Simply put born on the wrong side of the tracks gets you discredited for all that you lack

Raised in trauma and pain your life was never meant to be the same

Not simple not easy the cross you bare is heavy and greasy

So every time you begin to walk on your path you struggle to keep your footing

You stumble you crawl but each time you get up after the fall

So for the comfort and safety you live like your existence is a sin

Hiding your face away is the only thing that calms the fears that come each day

You have a choice continue this way hoping to fade away

Take a stand and take control, if it isn’t obvious by now I’m here to stay.

So sit down my friend and pull up a chair

This story is familiar and one we all share

Share your truth it’s the only way to change it for the ones to come

This battle is old but together we can overcome

There has to be a better way better days ahead for everyone

For all not just some what was done in the darkness can be undone

The end is here.

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Honestly it’s a tale as old as time and goes even deeper.

Emotionally and for our wellbeing we need others and that’s a simple fact, yet this world has told us it is weak and codependent to need others yet life alone cannot be sustained one would absolutely go insane without love and interaction look at castaway with Wilson.

Yes while we feel like we would be better alone we’re not wrong either not exactly anyway but nonetheless we’re still wrong we’re buying into the division they try to create it became every man out for themselves and that’s where destruction ruled over and won.

Now it’s high time we realize that we realize all that division did was cause heartbreak anger pain and regret it caused struggles and financial worries that didn’t need to be, children were placed in vulnerable and dangerous situations because the familial support was removed.

Now we struggle and destroy each other and all we really want to do is pull each other close and make it better together and put the pain of the past behind us finding a better way forward together.

If ego and pride could be set aside and people would feel comfortable being vulnerable and openly taking to one another without fear of judgement.

Then we can begin to listen to our hearts and find we’ve been waging wars against ourselves and we don’t have to anymore it’s time for a new way forward into our future together for all!

Love doesn’t hurt control does!

loy·al

adjective
1 giving or showing firm and constant support or allegiance to a person or institution.”loyal service”
This is the problem there is no allegiance or loyalty to others we started idolizing material and Wealth we lost sight of what matters the most!

Loyalty to each other family and love,loyalty to the truth and loyalty to what is right is what is lacking in this country.

We made things more important than people.

Everyone set their sights on what they wanted materially and sacrificed those who care for them to get it.

Now everyone has to learn that this is where they have lacked in humanity and in love and what’s right. This is what I meant when I said keeping your heart pure, while yea I want more I’m not about to destroy a innocent someone to get it.

I’m grateful for what I have throughout the struggles and I know better days will come. I strive to help others who are suffering because I know the pain as well, I also know together we can change it for everyone.

A new way forward exists when you’re ready I’m here.

The spiritual journey and what it is…

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The point of this spiritual journey is to bring us back to whole.


During the hard times as we experience heartbreaking goodbyes and traumas resurface we are taught how to learn how to love and honor ourselves fully so we can awaken to our truth and full potential.

When we release fear in all aspects and step into our authentic being shedding the judgement of others.
We release the beliefs put on us about who we were expected to be, finally being seen and appreciated for who we truly are.

It’s hard at times without a doubt but it is the most beautiful love you will ever experience once you begin living what you’re speaking.
The work isn’t easy and yes there are times when you feel like you can’t take anymore.

Please keep going don’t give up, I promise all the pain wasn’t for nothing. Your truth will be revealed ignorance is dying as we educate others.

Don’t fear the unknown embrace the changes and live your life for you!
You deserve a love that doesn’t hurt and that’s the end of the rainbow everything else suddenly falls into place!

I speak from absolute experience I have no reason to lie to you. ~Tami Irizarry
Love doesn’t hurt. Toxicity does. Evolve.

I took this picture yesterday proof is all around if you choose to see! 🙌🏽🤍♾🕊🗣

As I lay me down to sleep.

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As I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul will keep, if I shall die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.

If I shall wake another day I pray the Lord shows man the way, to clarity and understanding that right is only right, when it is right for all. Or it isn’t right for all.

Each interaction I lose more hope, the cruelty and lack of understanding, humanity is losing hope and I can’t take anymore pain. Why do I fight for change when it remains the same and I’m always the one to blame?

I do it because I deserved better than what happened to me, we all did and we can’t change the past. What we can do is change ourselves and stop it from happening in the future. We didn’t realize the damage that was happening in time and our children had to endure the pain as well.

Our grandchildren deserve better and change comes when we start openly honestly communicating with each other and holding the appropriate people responsible and accountable for their actions.

We can stop blaming the victims and stop protecting the villains as we claim ignorance, it continues to happen because many play deaf dumb or blind.

They Can’t comprehend how someone can lose it all, they’ve never had to struggle, they’ve never had to truly fall. For them I’m glad they had the right support in life. Some of us aren’t so fortunate after all.

Instead of trying to understand, or even wonder how it would feel if it were them. They make hate filled judgments and laugh at the pain.

If this is what it’s all for please don’t wake me anymore, I’m tired. I want to rest now.

Now if you want to open hearts and restore faith please send me forth for all days!