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I am that I am. I am the only me I can be, love is the only way for me.

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I am in love, I am what I do.

I love in love, I’ve learned a better way. It’s more then what you say, but also how you say it. Love speaks through all that you do, it’s in the words you choose and the way that you move. It flows through you and others feel and see it too. Love is who I am, love is what I do. Love is free and love is true, understand the ways of love start with simply being you. You before the world told you who you should be, go back to your better days when you could just be free.

I believe in love, it’s been there for all the change. No matter the trauma or the pain love stood by my side while I felt lost and afraid. It wasn’t a love from another not always you’ll see. The deepest love I’ve ever known has come from within me.

I’ve consoled myself when I couldn’t take anymore. I woke myself up and pushed me towards the door. I’ve wiped my tears and rocked through my cries. I’ve stayed by my side through all the goodbyes. I am in love with myself it’s how I survive in this life.

I live in love for me it’s the only way.

I exist in love, I exist for change.

I laugh in love, my heart is free.

I know who I am, inside and out. I am free to love in the purest ways, without judgement without shame, never a worry, never blame.

I am never worried about who she wants me to be. I showed her everything the world said was bad about me. I was so scared god I remember. I cried like a baby so afraid of rejection. I showed her the hair on my chin and my neck, she kissed me so deeply, holding me as I cried.

She lifted me into her arms and kissed me a million times at least it felt like that anyway. She told me I was absolutely gorgeous and I could see it in her eyes. She meant every word she was saying.

I was almost embarrassed by my surprise, I tested her again I was still so afraid so I showed her all my scars would she still choose to stay? She is absolutely finitely in love with me. She doesn’t hide away from me all the ways she was told not to be. We embrace all the beautiful things that make us who we are.

I don’t have to speak for her. I speak for only me, I know it’s true in all she does it’s in the way she moves. in the way she treats me. Haven’t we been picked apart enough, love is a safe place in which we’ve built on trust.

I feel in love, with everything in me

I think in love, I open my mind. It’s not about me all of the time, I think about it all and I make sure I understand, I ask questions seeking clarity when I don’t understand. I trust in the communication we’ve built, I am free to ask without shame or guilt. We teach and learn from each other as we go, how can we learn if we’re so afraid to ask we pretend to know.

I know in love, I don’t own you, you are not mine.

I learn in love, change happens all the time. I am only me. I control my time. I share it with those who I choose. This is my life, these are my rules.

I evolve in love, I stand by you until you decline.

I grow in love, Boundaries set are safe and kind.

I morph in love, I adapt there is no blame it’s life.

I change in love, I simply exist to be. In an ever changing world, I grow rapidly.

I soar in love, I speak my will there is no confusion. We all know what to do.

I rise in love, I trust you with me. We speak in love it happens so easily.

I speak in love- I only mean what I say. There is no confusion or in between.

I scribe in love- to share the way. Love is the answer to changing the ways.

I see in love- Nothing else exists. I observe who you are and I understand why.

I perceive in love- I see everyone’s perspectives and can understand why.

I understand in love- It’s not my place to judge, I’m not perfect all of the time.

I will in love- All I desire to be. This begins in us all, for you as for me.

I desire in love- all that is for me. Love is peace. I hope you understand it would be a dream to me.

I dream in love- I breath life into motion. My dreams are messages of love from me, that I choose to share with a chosen few.

I color the world in love- I light the path for those who can see, so they may find the way. Only pure hearts can understand what I say.

I stand for what I love- All that is right and true. Right is right but only when right is right for everyone not just you.

I die when I cease to love- There is nothing left to feel. The pain is to intense, this life cannot be real. I look for an escape a way to make it through the day.

Can anybody see me am I even real?

I love so I fight for a better way. I want everyone to live a life they love so they don’t have to numb their life away. We don’t have to do it alone anymore, it’s safe to want to be free. Change happens rapidly we only need to realize, it begins with you and me.

I become in love when I fall in love with myself- The only way to heal yourself is to embrace and love all of yourself. The parts you hate that you’ve wished away. They are beautiful parts that you were taught to hate. I’m sorry others made you feel that way.

I know in love- This life gets tiring and we all need help, it’s too much for us to be expected to do it all by ourselves.

Help is out there if you should need. Do what you need to make it through another day, don’t give up change is on the way.

I am proud in love- I’m proud of you for being so strong so long.

If you’re seeing this it’s meant for you too!!! ♾🤍

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Dear me,

I am so proud of you!!

What I’ve watched you go through, the heart break and suffering in silence, you’ve fought your way through it all!

You searched for a better way and kept your heart pure. You made your focus on true love and what is right for all. You kept unconditional love, understanding and concern in your heart and lived it at all times.

You never judged another you simply tried to understand the differences and respected everyone equally and their ways, understanding your way isn’t the only way and that is just fine.

I know you’re scared and tired. I know you feel like this pain will never end, I know in your heart and soul you can’t accept that to be the truth.

I’m so proud of you because it wasn’t for nothing and dreams do come true.

The pain is coming to an end it’s the Dawn of Anew way forward together!

New days are here. Those with pure hearts please lift your heads once and for all.

You’re divinely protected in the heart of infinite love.

I AM is here.

The end is here.

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Honestly it’s a tale as old as time and goes even deeper.

Emotionally and for our wellbeing we need others and that’s a simple fact, yet this world has told us it is weak and codependent to need others yet life alone cannot be sustained one would absolutely go insane without love and interaction look at castaway with Wilson.

Yes while we feel like we would be better alone we’re not wrong either not exactly anyway but nonetheless we’re still wrong we’re buying into the division they try to create it became every man out for themselves and that’s where destruction ruled over and won.

Now it’s high time we realize that we realize all that division did was cause heartbreak anger pain and regret it caused struggles and financial worries that didn’t need to be, children were placed in vulnerable and dangerous situations because the familial support was removed.

Now we struggle and destroy each other and all we really want to do is pull each other close and make it better together and put the pain of the past behind us finding a better way forward together.

If ego and pride could be set aside and people would feel comfortable being vulnerable and openly taking to one another without fear of judgement.

Then we can begin to listen to our hearts and find we’ve been waging wars against ourselves and we don’t have to anymore it’s time for a new way forward into our future together for all!

Love doesn’t hurt control does!

loy·al

adjective
1 giving or showing firm and constant support or allegiance to a person or institution.”loyal service”
This is the problem there is no allegiance or loyalty to others we started idolizing material and Wealth we lost sight of what matters the most!

Loyalty to each other family and love,loyalty to the truth and loyalty to what is right is what is lacking in this country.

We made things more important than people.

Everyone set their sights on what they wanted materially and sacrificed those who care for them to get it.

Now everyone has to learn that this is where they have lacked in humanity and in love and what’s right. This is what I meant when I said keeping your heart pure, while yea I want more I’m not about to destroy a innocent someone to get it.

I’m grateful for what I have throughout the struggles and I know better days will come. I strive to help others who are suffering because I know the pain as well, I also know together we can change it for everyone.

A new way forward exists when you’re ready I’m here.

Hurt people hurt people and they sometimes do not know it.

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The truth is hurt people hurt people.

Have you ever wondered why?
Perhaps we should try and understand if we contributed to the hurt that these people are unleashing.

Understand this loves, If you personally hurt someone and it was intentionally or unintentionally they have the right to how they feel.

If you truly love them you will be willing to listen to understand without being defensive, If we can start living with understanding instead of judgement perhaps we can acknowledge that we are all suffering and trying to do the best we can.

If you didn’t have any hand in hurting them perhaps show a little grace and realize they may not know a better way exists.

Kindness matters to yourself and others.
It helps to heal hearts, then we can find who we truly are under all the pain we’ve endured. It’s time we do better together educate each other. Hold all as accountable as you hold yourself.
🕊🤍♾~ Tami Irizarry
We can change this world together!

Remember I am my own healer.

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So while I spent this early morning revisiting the past. It is now 8:00am and the birds are chirping. it is a beautiful day to be alive!

The one thing I have learned is that I am the one who chooses how I experience this life and I choose to be happy. Too much of my life has been controlled by the actions of others. I won’t allow that again, it is my life and I live it for me.

I guess I am telling you this to help remind you, no matter how bad the past is, how dark the depression there is hope. When it gets bad put your hand over your feel it beating and know my love you are a work of art! I love you all.

Hold on change is coming although it hurts to grow, its necessary. We deserve love, peace and happiness. Freedom from all the shackles that have held us back.

Rainbow Warriors Rise

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So much talking.

With nothing much to say.

In a world where there are so many haven’t been taught how to properly understand emotions, how to openly communicate without being defensive. Lets be real conversations aren’t that deep, no one really knows what they’re trying to say…. let alone what’s being said and you can forget about them hearing you because most people don’t know how to listen to hear, instead they listen to respond. Then you have to also understand comprehension and perception because the ability to truly comprehend isn’t as simple as you think… instead of clarifying to be sure our message was heard we jump to assume it was. Ironically we need to change it but nothing ever changes until it is addressed, but where do we begin to address it in a world conditioned to silent obedience? 

Some turn a blind eye to the issues they can’t control and hide behind the veil of ignorance trying to discredit the issues they deem don’t involve them that is how.. Privileged Society pushes forward ignoring all the tears and cries they turn up the music, buy a pretty mask to cover the ugly truth. Their hearts filled with rage, their souls lost in feelings they can’t put into words. The world is begging to be healed as it is ravaged in every imaginable way. Broken children searching for hope, hearts longing for a savior in any form at all, something, anything just to feel a little bit of peace. A beautiful distraction from the pain sounds so so good in this cold and evil world, please understand the price we end up paying is far too deep. The privileged walk on by not concerned with you nor I. Something shifts.. they are worried but they keep up appearances not wanting to accept what is coming for them. There lives start to crack and chaos begins to flood in, lying to themselves afraid to admit who they have truly been. The privileged were given all the opportunities to make a difference and fully heal the pain resulting in permanent change, to make amends for all the wrong that had been done. Miserably they failed and instead took full advantage and now because of greed they lose it all. 

You know them, the privileged ones they are the ones who said they’re better then me & you, they are the powerful, they are in charge, they’re too important, they’re too busy, they’re to stressed… too care about the matters of family or the heart. No light on within seeking to fill the void, quietly yet violently they fill themselves with all the distractions and entrapments they can find that allows them to continue to play this part. They can’t remove the mask and if they even tried they would see it’s one of millions in this world of evils, cancers and greed this is the only place where they will ever succeed.

The messages from source come out of the mouths of divine messengers much like me and you. Knowing the gateway to the soul is reached only by those whose hearts are touched by the arts, music became a new way to experience life. The privileged had the knowledge and wealth so they gained control of the way the message was presented and Instead of invoking peace while listening, we were only allowed to experience the messages through a chaos frequency. Chaos started overflowing more frequently and people were believing the lies they were fed over their own knowing and truth. They started to accept restrictions over freedom, then they chose convenience over care and they started saying love when they should have said pain while they were trying to describe pleasure everything was so confusing because nobody spoke they got confused and hate disguised and called love. 

With all the control they had, it was easy to make everyone fall in line. We watched as our natural medicines were ripped away, we watched as our healers were hunted, tortured and burned. Secretly they hoped that they would never return. They told us the truth when they said the devil is the the king of Hell. What they neglected to mention is that we all know him very well. Too many manipulations occurred so naturally we learned it easier to accept it and be complacent then to fight and die. That we simply didn’t hear them all the times they said devils name was God. You certainly didn’t question the words from above, that is unheard of what would you be thought of! 

Time is fickle and funny it’s true. The stories were hidden & the lies became truth, With each life lost, each broken heart and tortured soul… we lost all the traditions and the ways of the old. We lost our culture our traditions our magick. Our souls shattered like glass into small fractions of truth. Through the lessons we were once forced to learn, our memories faded and we adopted their ways as our own. We began to want the lies they sold us. Trying desperately to fit in and be part of their history. what high prices to have access to a little decency. The food they provided us so convenient and so tasty we couldn’t understand the fact they were knowingly leading us to our graves early. 

We started to blindly trust all they said and did, we believed the organized medical care system had our best interests at heart. They happily allowed us to believe, its great they have an cure for anything and everything.. it’s the one stop cure all never realizing the price we soon would pay for it all.

Through it all there were very few could truly still see. Segregated and divided, alone they stood each of them holding the light of divinity, Waiting for the others to answer the call.. This is where I come in and it’s a pleasure to meet you all. Call me Tami I know you think you don’t know me. That’s okay I know who you are and we have some commonalities. I am the only me I can be but they call us the black sheep’s, the loners, the freaks, the throw away kids, the left behinds, the forgottens, the abuseds, the addicts, the lunatics, the unloveds, the ones persecuted, the ugly , the tortured, the oddballs, the lesbians, the fat people, the gays, the losers, the different ones, the weirdos, the troubled children in the eyes of privileged society. We are the same we are the ones they tried to destroy, the ones they burned, enslaved, ruined, desecrated. RETURNED!

We are the product of hopes and dreams, we are the rhythms of drums found in countless heartbeats. We are the the lineage of the true Source of it all. Christ consciousness, love, integrity, truth, justice, balance, honor, karma, darkness brought to light. We are all the dreams of the women and men, ages, races from all shades the black, the browns, the yellows, the reds, the whites, the greens. We are the Rainbow Warriors.

Into the truth we light the way, we pave the path. We stand proudly remembering who we are, awakened to it all hear our message near and far! The time has come for the false to pay, the scales of justice have had no balance for too long. Anything gained by intentionally harming another is starting to be removed for all the pain every, every tear, every bit of innocence lost, every thievery, every heartbreaking moment that was caused in all lives, with evil intent in the names of lies, while they greedily stood right by. While they fed you lies and made you bow, telling you all the ways your were wrong, purposely making you regret the day you were born. 

Redemption is here and Bob wasn’t wrong this my loves is your redemption song…. Repay you they will and the generations to come until they have satisfied all the karmic debt that is to be repaid for every generation, life, blessing and family member they have stolen away from you and stolen from. They will pay for the pain every, every tear, every bit of innocence lost, every thievery, every heartbreaking moment that was caused in all lives, with evil intent in the names of lies.

Judgement is hear the day has come, they walk amongst you the chosen ones, the overlooked and overwhelmed the meek as they were called.

Now are called to stand at the completion of their Grand Rising.

Phoenix you are reborn.

The time is here take your rightful place and inherit the earth.

The efforts and trials you have endured have not been in vain.

The battles you fought and all you have lost wasn’t without purpose.

The day of reckoning is here, rejoice in knowing the glory is yours!

The blessings will now begin to flow. 

Stand firm in your truth and continue to grow there is more to come do not stop now.

The only way to fully ascend is to clear all the old baggage out.

How do I heal my heart?

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I am a healer and the saddest thing is to witness people who are trying to heal be lied to or denied healing in anyway. Do I charge yes I do…. why? Well for many reasons while I want to help every single person it’s not up to me just like it’s not up to you. 

I share knowledge and encouragement daily in many ways, social media, mentoring, podcast, blog, events etc…. I offer freely of my time and energy when I feel it is appropriate. I have boundaries and I honor and love myself my family and my loved ones and I enjoy being able to live my blessed life with them. I cannot do that in the way I deserve if I give away all of myself. My love is free and I give it freely what isn’t free is my education (I had to pay for it), my time (I can’t get it back), my energy (why should I suffer the pain of your choices), my effort (why should I be willing to give more then you are when it comes to your healing?). Now there is a difference between not being able to afford my services and wanting what I give for free… how?

Simply circumstances of life are so that it can make it hard enough to keep yourself afloat and that I understand I also offer personalized help until you show me my commitment to your healing is greater then your own. 

Without further ado onto how you can heal yourself a step by step guide! Be mindful you will have to find ways to measure your progress and hold yourself accountable.

Where do we go from here? 

There are two choices in any situation. The first choice is focus on the pain and become engulfed in it.
What does each option look like, mean, feel like and bring to your life?
Choice one


What does it feel like?

It feels like anxiety, sadness, loss of hope, fear, pain, anger, rage, loss and more…
What does it mean? Realistically it means the same as it always has on some level you have already questioned or known, now you can no longer deny it to yourself. You can’t change it alone either.
What does it look like? This one is tricky because it ties into what does it feel like and well it’s looks like it feels to you, however to the outside world looking in it looks like- depression, missed appointments and obligations, outbursts, tears, chaos, mess, destruction, miscommunication, self neglect and more.


What does it bring to your life?

The same circumstances and pain you have always experienced on a deeper more painful level. It continuously becomes louder, stronger as it continues to push you to your breaking your point in an attempt to have you finally choose you! Making you try to understand it, heal it, learn from it and change it.
Depending on how painful, how toxic, how many opportunities you have had to change in the past and the destruction it brings to your life that you can’t see.

Will be the deciding factor in how hard this experience is to move through. Call it what you will, a life changing event will occur to force your hand, an awakening, a dark night of the soul, a mental break down, a gateway to a spiritual journey, a midlife crisis, an affair, a death…. the list and the reasons are infinite. 

The only thing that is consistent throughout is the fact that no matter how long you try to avoid it or ignore it. Your soul has a job to do and it will do all it can so that you don’t fail and have to continue to learn the lesson you are ready to move past as you take step into the next phase of your life.
Your soul/higher self/ psyche/ brain/ mind/ heart/ inner child/heart … cannot do it without your permission.. why because you have free will which means if you so choose to stay where you are then this is where you stay until you make a choice to move.

The second choice is to take the knowledge you have gained and do what you need to so that you can keep moving forward in your life.
What does each option look like, mean, feel like and bring to your life?


Choice 2

What does it feel like?

Now this is where it gets tricky because it is scary, I won’t lie to you it is painful, it is releasing, freeing, cleansing and it time it is absolutely beautiful in a new way and life doesn’t ever hurt in the same ways again. When the lesson tries to comes back with a new name and face to be looked at again it doesn’t affect you the same way.
What does it mean? It means healing from a specific trauma from the past one by one as you begin reviewing stalk yourself, yes stalk yourself! Now here you try and figure out why you are triggered the way you are and what your triggers are, why you feel as you do, think as you do and live as you do. Sit with those feelings and pick them apart tracing back as far as you can, I like to guide my clients to the first time they remember feeling that emotion. Now that you have found which emotion and memory to search the past through, you are guided to understand how, what and why that interaction caused you to feel. How it has replayed throughout your entire life simply with different names and faces different situations and scenarios.
Ask yourself how it still currently affects your life. Once you have figured it out start looking into your adult life, seek the pattern that was set because of that initial situation and the emotions you felt.
It is time to go to the current situations in your life that have been problematic due to those patterns so let’s set the emotions aside and look at just the facts. Why???? Because your perception has changed and emotions simply aren’t the facts of the situation and each one involved has their own emotions caused by their own traumas…. learning to look at situations as an observer can help you navigate moving forward easily.

What does it look like?

Pausing before responding to give yourself a moment to breath and respond from a place of love not pain. It looks like a rebirth, freedom, joy, new beginnings. It’s the shine that you never realized you lost getting brighter and life beginning to change in beautiful ways, it looks like pleasure where there was once pain.

What does it bring to my life?


It brings the ability to utilize all that you have learned to life! Now where you came from a place of pain in whichever emotion you worked through you stand in a place of love. Living even with one step deeper in true self love through real healing begins to attract and call into your life beautiful new relationships, opportunities and love (not always sexually), growth and the tools needed to start new with a strong foundation in which you have healed. You glow brighter that new level of brightness doesn’t leave because it’s no longer temporary you did the work in healing that particular toxic pattern.