I know that others will think I shouldn’t be feeling this way, yet how can I deny the truth? Lying to myself isn’t a thing that I do, I’m not about to start now.

Empaths truly love with all of their hearts and would do anything for those they love. Most will openly admit it’s because they know what it feels like to not feel loved and don’t ever want another to experience that.

Often this will lead empaths into relationships with toxic partners. Love does grow between the the two, yet the love is toxic and unbalanced it’s true… the empath will become abused and still they will fight to prove their love as they take all the blame. The narcissist finds ultimate joy in this, they love the control and messed up games.

That is until we finally stand up. Once we do and they can no longer control us they start seeking new victims and without warning they are gone.

The empaths are left with unanswered questions and unheard pain. So I thought I would help to make it make sense.

It’s not you.

This is where I was able to see it in a different way, first I had to be honest with myself and walk through my pain. It’s a bit of how I feel, perhaps you’ve felt the same?

This is a letter to someone I loved.

You were my best friend and I believed in you, I couldn’t save you from your fears so that changed you. Instead of seeing it for what it was you made up wild lies you couldn’t actually believe I wanted you by my side. After all the damage that had been caused by you, I found forgiveness. My healing had only begun I had to love myself.

I picked up all your broken pieces every single time it was finally your turn and you left me alone to die. The thing is you stuck that knife in my heart it was you every single time, still I blamed myself and tried to understand what happened overnight forever I was your family and best friend straight to nothing over night.

I was trying to find my way back to learn to trust you again so when you put the blame on me remember this in the end. I cannot tell a lie. I truly loved you and wanted you forever in my life.

That’s why I say it’s a fucked up thing to play with hearts and minds the damage that you cause it absolutely destroys lives. Love isn’t a game or something just to say. Love is shown in how you live, its expressed in what you choose to say, it’s shown in what you choose to do and how you treat those you who truly love you.

I know I love far more than most, I have to be true to myself and you have to be true to you so please remember in all that you do. Hearts and minds are not play things and the damage we cause not always can we undo.

However If love is real and love is true, why would we give up on each other is that what love would do?

I think we get frustrated and we stop trying to understand. I feel like people become so jaded and fearful that too much damage had been caused so they walk away afraid that to be treated in the exact same way.

Toxic people struggle to grasp forgiveness, understanding, responsibility and accountability is too much of a burden for the fragile ego to take so instead they choose to walk away and give up on love. They find a easier target and fuck another life up.

I also learned toxic means hurt. It’s a person who has become so hurt they don’t know any other way to be except what they have been taught and that is to hurt others.

So now that we know how about we resolve to let that type of love die it’s toxic and not right for anyone. If you don’t love them let them go, if you love them let it show. Loves not a game.

Now what I can tell you is that not all love is like this. There is a true real love that does exist remember the law of karma you get what you give. So if you have always been true a real true love will find you! Make sure to stop accepting less then you deserve, you set the standards for how you are treated!

Change is here you don’t have to trust me, it’s clear to see. I was outside yesterday enjoying the sun at the hotel by the pool.

I’m overhearing a mother share her story of abusy and how she is trying to break the cycle with her children, it’s beautiful.

Now the man she is sitting with is telling a story of his childhood how I empathize and give her the understanding she is longing for, finally the change we’ve been waiting on.

I’m sure they’re brother and sister now, they speak of their parents and the abuse they endured and how it messed them up as people. They’re trying to figure out a better way forward from what they had been taught.

They are able to see the trauma it’s caused in their own children it’s time.

I keep receiving the same message and conclusion it is time to let others figure it out as we start on this new journey in love, we have waited long enough.

It is safe to move forward and build this new world in love, the ones who have pure hearts yet struggle will eventually catch up, healing hurts and takes time before a person finds their way back to self after abuse.

We’ve held ourselves back for long enough now it’s time to stand back up, dust off and lift your heads and hearts!

The break is over it’s time to get out of bed, it’s time to build foundations that last this time with hope for the future and not with the pain of the past.

Love is forevermore and will always and forever last. Love is the way.

Love is unconditional acceptance of bad behavior is not. Don’t try me you better save that shit for someone else.

You may be the problem if you’r ridiculous whining and carrying on, crying, shouting and throwing a fit when you’re asked to do what’s right, or don’t get your way. Honestly it’s embarrassing and disgusting at your age, you’re not a child.

Your parents, friends, lovers and family allow your shitty behaviors simply because they don’t want to hear your mouth, your behaviors are toxic.

They give you what you want to shut you up and we’re all fully aware. They also do it out of guilt, there’s a good chance they didn’t do a good job as parents and you probably remind them of themselves.

That’s wonderful if they are good people!! Now if they’re are not good people and they have no issue because you’re like them take a look at your life and ask some questions.

You may be the problem.

The thing is you don’t have to choose to be a shitty person, it’s a choice you literally have to go out of your way to be an asshole so understand we’re fully aware of who you are and what you do.

People like this are fully aware of it and will openly admit that they’re assholes and shit starters because they think it’s funny.

The truth is they’re a cancer in this society and everything wrong with this world.

So I will gladly keep my title of black sheep and problem child. I will wear that badge with pride as I realize I’m nothing like you. I speak truth in order to bring change, I don’t talk shit to cause pain.

We are not the same if you play sick mind games.

Silence is killing our children and all that’s good to you while you keep doing what you want to.

Love wins as we call out all the bullshit, lies, manipulation and games.

This is our world and we’re done with willful ignorance, intentional pain and abuse. It’s time for you to learn, this world has turned into a new way of life. Learn the rules or be left behind it’s no longer your way at all cost.

This life is all of ours and it’s time for the divine love to rise as we take back what belongs to us all. Love Liberty and Justice for all not just some.

Could if I would be any other way, STOP! That isn’t true. Why are these the words I choose to say?

I think it’s because of societal standards and beliefs, they break us down those who don’t fit in and at times it can make me wish I didn’t exist.

Yet I know better. What they say, feel or think about me or you should make no difference.

Most people are unhappy and too busy lying to themselves,the only way they feel better about their lives is to make others feel like less.

Yet it still causes pain, the beliefs and thoughts that most hold so dear. Money is king, get to the top at all cost. No matter who is trampled on, no matter what the loss.

There must be a better way. New generations no longer have to learn through pain.

We can stop saying and doing things that we know intentionally cause harm. Willful ignorance isn’t an excuse we’re accepting anymore. Take no shit but cause no harm.

I killed a part of myself today yet not in a usual way, no one took notice I’m sad to say.

I can’t blame them the part of me that died today no one else knew existed it was the part of me that came alive when I was with you. You didn’t know it happened and you will never mourn because you walked away from me after telling me you loved me and you would always be there.

I had already learned that your actions and your words rarely ring true. It was the same pattern that had been shown to me so many times before not only by you, truthfully by everyone who had ever walked through a door and into my life.

I had to wonder if it was me and took a good look at my time here.

I realized i was damaged by the traumas of the past.

I loved to much and I cared to deeply, love was always looking to protect the ones who wished to destroy and deceive me.

Love to me isn’t a game like many who chose to play it believe it be.

Love is a bond built on truth and vulnerability how can I trust me with you when you don’t even know what love is supposed to do?

How can I simply be me when you get threatened by what that means for you? We are not the same you’re here to play games and I seek truth and clarity I don’t give a damn what this world thinks of me.

This isn’t a popularity contest to me it’s about living my truth authentically.

Big money fast cars and some bling on your arm doesn’t mean shit when you have all that chaos on your mind and in your heart.

The path to redemption begins in your soul, it brings you back to the past to understand how you became the person you are.

A deep truth and personal accountability is needed if you are to get past this part.

The past is hard and no one wants to admit it but we have all fucked up it’s time to go back to the beginning. Once we understand how it came to be we can begin the undoing of the trauma and set ourselves free.