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Mental health

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I suffered a mental health crisis during a pandemic and became homeless without any warning.

I’m so afraid to open my mouth to speak

What if the words that come out escape me

What if I lose control and speak a language that nobody knows

What if I start again speaking in tongues how long before the law man comes

How long before I’m locked away in another place for the mentally spiritually insane

Perception is funny especially when based in fact to the one who speaks truth

The one who can choose to see only facts

When the emotions are removed in pursuit of a deeper truth

Which ways to seek the right and wrong of a world where justice doesn’t only not prevail but intentionally fails

Truth seekers are punished and shamed all so they can hold on to the old ways

Morals and values based on what system when the words they teach are spun into webs to connect the lies they force you to respect

Protect and serve oh lord the nerve

Only with the right color and right social status do they care

Anything less then white or wealthy is undesirable so trust in your ruin they won’t fail

They blame for acting out but no one wonders why or what brought it about

Lock you up and throw away the key that’s what they do even when you believe your free

Source of it all on you I do call tell me how to proceed when I’m so scared of another fall

Absolutely terrified to be myself I’ve walked so many times through these levels of hell now I’m lost

The wrong one not a son unwanted daughter of that one

How to leave the pain behind when I am so scared to step outside

Some would say paranoid but that isn’t the case

I learned first hands what it feels like to have them bruise your face heart and soul and smile at you as they do it because they know

Simply put born on the wrong side of the tracks gets you discredited for all that you lack

Raised in trauma and pain your life was never meant to be the same

Not simple not easy the cross you bare is heavy and greasy

So every time you begin to walk on your path you struggle to keep your footing

You stumble you crawl but each time you get up after the fall

So for the comfort and safety you live like your existence is a sin

Hiding your face away is the only thing that calms the fears that come each day

You have a choice continue this way hoping to fade away

Take a stand and take control, if it isn’t obvious by now I’m here to stay.

So sit down my friend and pull up a chair

This story is familiar and one we all share

Share your truth it’s the only way to change it for the ones to come

This battle is old but together we can overcome

There has to be a better way better days ahead for everyone

For all not just some what was done in the darkness can be undone

The end is here.

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Honestly it’s a tale as old as time and goes even deeper.

Emotionally and for our wellbeing we need others and that’s a simple fact, yet this world has told us it is weak and codependent to need others yet life alone cannot be sustained one would absolutely go insane without love and interaction look at castaway with Wilson.

Yes while we feel like we would be better alone we’re not wrong either not exactly anyway but nonetheless we’re still wrong we’re buying into the division they try to create it became every man out for themselves and that’s where destruction ruled over and won.

Now it’s high time we realize that we realize all that division did was cause heartbreak anger pain and regret it caused struggles and financial worries that didn’t need to be, children were placed in vulnerable and dangerous situations because the familial support was removed.

Now we struggle and destroy each other and all we really want to do is pull each other close and make it better together and put the pain of the past behind us finding a better way forward together.

If ego and pride could be set aside and people would feel comfortable being vulnerable and openly taking to one another without fear of judgement.

Then we can begin to listen to our hearts and find we’ve been waging wars against ourselves and we don’t have to anymore it’s time for a new way forward into our future together for all!

Love doesn’t hurt control does!

loy·al

adjective
1 giving or showing firm and constant support or allegiance to a person or institution.”loyal service”
This is the problem there is no allegiance or loyalty to others we started idolizing material and Wealth we lost sight of what matters the most!

Loyalty to each other family and love,loyalty to the truth and loyalty to what is right is what is lacking in this country.

We made things more important than people.

Everyone set their sights on what they wanted materially and sacrificed those who care for them to get it.

Now everyone has to learn that this is where they have lacked in humanity and in love and what’s right. This is what I meant when I said keeping your heart pure, while yea I want more I’m not about to destroy a innocent someone to get it.

I’m grateful for what I have throughout the struggles and I know better days will come. I strive to help others who are suffering because I know the pain as well, I also know together we can change it for everyone.

A new way forward exists when you’re ready I’m here.

The spiritual journey and what it is…

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The point of this spiritual journey is to bring us back to whole.


During the hard times as we experience heartbreaking goodbyes and traumas resurface we are taught how to learn how to love and honor ourselves fully so we can awaken to our truth and full potential.

When we release fear in all aspects and step into our authentic being shedding the judgement of others.
We release the beliefs put on us about who we were expected to be, finally being seen and appreciated for who we truly are.

It’s hard at times without a doubt but it is the most beautiful love you will ever experience once you begin living what you’re speaking.
The work isn’t easy and yes there are times when you feel like you can’t take anymore.

Please keep going don’t give up, I promise all the pain wasn’t for nothing. Your truth will be revealed ignorance is dying as we educate others.

Don’t fear the unknown embrace the changes and live your life for you!
You deserve a love that doesn’t hurt and that’s the end of the rainbow everything else suddenly falls into place!

I speak from absolute experience I have no reason to lie to you. ~Tami Irizarry
Love doesn’t hurt. Toxicity does. Evolve.

I took this picture yesterday proof is all around if you choose to see! 🙌🏽🤍♾🕊🗣

https://www.lakotatimes.com/articles/rainbow-warriors/

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The elders knew what was going to come, the faith they had was and has always been unwavering.

What no one seems to understand is they were absolutely right. The rainbow warriors would be the ones to save the world.

Who are the rainbow warriors?

Allow me to introduce you to anyone who has fought for love in any real way and that includes those who paid dearly.

I’ve been shown by God/Source/Great spirit, the rainbow warriors are found everywhere.

I speak for myself but I find it to be Particularly in the LGBTQIA community. Yes let me explain from my personal experience. I am a lesbian, I have had to fight every single day for my right to love. As a mother in the nineties I worried all the time that they would take my children simply because I loved a woman.

Much like those before me who lost their lives, homes, families; I went through similar struggles and heartbreaking loss and traumas. To be honest we opened the broken hearts club and became advocates for all, in what is right for all.

We payed dearly every step of the way, yet I couldn’t be more proud of being gay.

My struggles and pain only paved the path for my own daughter to come out as a lesbian and receive the support and love she deserves.

There isn’t a better feeling to be had if you’re a true of heart mom or dad! You just get it. If my suffering helped in any aspect, that’s a blessing and a beautiful gift.

Yet here we are in 2022 and again they threaten our freedoms. How many more lives will be lost for the belief of man?

They’re trying to undo all we have fought for with our lives. I am sick of it and can’t stand this hate and evil anymore.

Why is this country run by those fueled on hateful personal beliefs and evil in their hearts? So focused on power and control they happily will sacrifice each and every soul.

It’s time to take control back and set it right for all!

Either we finally stand up together and unite once and for all. They’ve already proven that divided we fall.

This country has become so over run with greed, taken over by manipulation. They weaponized their own people against each other, make no mistake this is a war on humanity.

In school you were taught how to obey, you were told what to think. How to behave and what is and isn’t socially acceptable which bred intolerance and judgement and led us all to shame.

Those who thought for themselves and spoke their minds had no choice, me personally I felt forced into speaking up. How could I be quiet with the reality I was born into? Truth is it was done to everyone and we all did the best we could do.

We did our best to warn you all and now of it all is too hard to bear.

We understand and there is no judgement, now it’s simply time to do better. When you know better you do better. You soon will.

Ignorance is no longer an acceptable excuse, if you wouldn’t like it done to you don’t do it to another. So simple yet so true.

Those addicts in your families that you threw away did you ever once consider what happened to them? What was done to them to make them become this way? Or did you fill with shame anger and judgement and ultimately throw them away.

Simply because you feel something doesn’t make it right. There are so many different perceptions to open to. Try to open to understanding again. Those walls you built to protect you when your heart couldn’t take anymore are the same walls preventing love from truly entering.

I promise you this no God will ever judge you without taking it all into consideration and we all deserved the same opportunity yet it was stolen from us so trust unless you’re intentionally evil you’re good.

It’s time to speak up for everyone and that includes you! Yes you matter too! Please realize this is for everyone of us!!!

All the outcasts, misfits, rainbow warriors, gay, straight, no labels it’s time to just be beautiful you!! If we don’t stand up for each other because it’s not our problem who is going to be left to stand for you when they come?

If it’s not your fight and it’s not right simply don’t participate what are they going to do arrest all who refuse to fight a mans war over control, when they are fighting Gods war for the heart and soul of man. We will never achieve peace while we’re fighting another mans war.

It’s time to try again in a better way together and begin Anew. The God of my heart is all about love and peace and I only speak the truth. 🕊🤍♾ I love you

Hurt people hurt people and they sometimes do not know it.

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The truth is hurt people hurt people.

Have you ever wondered why?
Perhaps we should try and understand if we contributed to the hurt that these people are unleashing.

Understand this loves, If you personally hurt someone and it was intentionally or unintentionally they have the right to how they feel.

If you truly love them you will be willing to listen to understand without being defensive, If we can start living with understanding instead of judgement perhaps we can acknowledge that we are all suffering and trying to do the best we can.

If you didn’t have any hand in hurting them perhaps show a little grace and realize they may not know a better way exists.

Kindness matters to yourself and others.
It helps to heal hearts, then we can find who we truly are under all the pain we’ve endured. It’s time we do better together educate each other. Hold all as accountable as you hold yourself.
🕊🤍♾~ Tami Irizarry
We can change this world together!

Bless up and open to truth. This is what I do with unsolicited advise.

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Allow me to share this nugget of knowledge with you.
Release the beliefs that you know anything about another, you do not you simply know yourself and what you don’t wish to acknowledge within is shown to you through your interactions with others.
Before you should anyone remember this, don’t tell me what I should do and I won’t tell you what you should do.
When we avoid our own healing because we’re too stuck to realize it is us crying to be healed, we project it on to others and while that is beautiful and so sharing it’s important to give that love and attention to yourself. Bless up Queens and Kings. 🤍🕊♾ Love Forevermore -Tami Irizarry.

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What’s the matrix??

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Hello love and welcome!!

I know how overwhelming this can all feel. So the best way I can describe the matrix is to describe you first. Allow me to explain, when you were born you were perfect absolutely full of unconditional love and innocence.

As you grew and others were responsible to help you to learn and mature. They may have taught you some ways that weren’t right or created some pain within you. Now as an adult you’re finding who you were before the world told you who you were.

The matrix is anything that tells us what to think or feel rather then allowing us to simply be who we are and embracing it. The matrix is those in control who seek to remain in control over power and greed.

They do this with lies and through intentional manipulation they have a say over what information we are given.

They rely on fear and hate, to do and to take as they wish without consideration or consequences.

So now here we are as a human race and we’re not unintelligent, we are not so soft spoken anymore, we are not afraid and we are coming together to stand for what is right for all.

We are informing and educating as we do our best to uplift, heal and encourage each other on our journeys when our paths cross. I hope that has helped to give you a better understanding. If you have any other questions feel free to ask! We’re all in this together!

We’re all in this together!

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I’m asking for your help to grow this page. For far too long many have wandered in search of answer with no safe place to find them. There are far too many people alone and struggling with the same questions and with no one to ask. Simply because they’re scared of being judged.

Now im a straight shooter and I am not emotion based when it comes to the right and wrong of life. Right is right for everyone or no one at all.

So if you don’t want it done to you don’t do it to anyone else.
Be kind put yourself in someone else’s shoes.
I know many have a lot of questions and are struggling.

I’m opening a Free Q&A about the journey and how to progress. At https://www.facebook.com/groups/1163348093828054/.

This will remain open free now and forevermore!

This group is not here to judge. I know that this journey that I am on personally there is no way for anyone to understand what I am personally experiencing first hand, with that understanding I don’t judge another soul.

What I do is seek to understand, I ask for clarity instead of assuming so I ask that you try that way while interacting with each other let’s keep it a safe space for all.

On different levels we experience different vibrations and emotions. Some are new. Some advanced. All absolutely where they are meant to be and all equally important.

These are basic human decencies, we’re all in this together let’s bring humanity back!!
For too long we’ve lost our way, I need your help to grow this group and make real change!!!

Remember I am my own healer.

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So while I spent this early morning revisiting the past. It is now 8:00am and the birds are chirping. it is a beautiful day to be alive!

The one thing I have learned is that I am the one who chooses how I experience this life and I choose to be happy. Too much of my life has been controlled by the actions of others. I won’t allow that again, it is my life and I live it for me.

I guess I am telling you this to help remind you, no matter how bad the past is, how dark the depression there is hope. When it gets bad put your hand over your feel it beating and know my love you are a work of art! I love you all.

Hold on change is coming although it hurts to grow, its necessary. We deserve love, peace and happiness. Freedom from all the shackles that have held us back.

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I woke up in tears. People make me laugh.. It’s not tears of joy!

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Today depression came back full force. It’s 4:48 am I’ve been up since 3 as usual.

I’m trying to understand why it’s hitting so hard as if it’s really hard to understand that reliving the trauma of the past will also bring up pain and I will be easily triggered.

People are the topic of the conversation today. Fucking people, sorry not sorry, people are the worst. Me included trust me as much as I am love and light, I am equally fast and furious if you intentionally try to play with me.

I see the things you do before you do them, most people are simply going in circles like ants with a chalk outline.

People please don’t be afraid to think outside of the box of social expectations and conditioning. This is your personal life, when are you going to live it as you wish?

Instead, many continue repeating the motions of what they were taught and never wonder what the hell we’re doing here. The amount of predictability is insane.

So let me say open your mind, ignorance is no excuse. You deserve to live a life of love and peace. It can never happen if you are a life boat to everyone drowning around you.

If you didn’t know I’m about to tell you. You are welcome!!

Energy and Time are more valuable then money.

No one owes you a thing so if they share themselves with you appreciate them.

Say what you mean, mean what you say.

Talk only truth.

Don’t say it if you’re not going to do it.

Words are powerful.

You can’t change the meaning of the word because you don’t like it.

Just because you want to be right doesn’t mean you’re right.

Facts over emotions will save you everytime.

Individual pain and trauma is no competition.

Honor your obligations.

Healing truly begins when you stop allowing people to treat you like shit while your being nice to them.

Stop being nice and let’s start being real with each other!

By being nice we’re only allowing shitty behavior to continue.

Please have basic decency.

Kindness is natural so be kind yes but never fake and to me, if I have to tell you to be nice it means that you no longer feel the need to be nice and I trust you with you so.. YOLO

Common sense is sadly not common.

It should be.

Communication is key.

Ask for clarity before you assume.

Not everyone is your friend. Seriously most only want something from you as long as it’s equal give and take there are no issues. When it’s one sided reevaluate.

If they ignore you but you are there for them regardless of your personal situation… Pull back.

How are you going to give all you are to someone else just for it to be take for granted or disregarded? Stop giving it away.

Turn the attention and focus back on yourself. Isn’t it time you live a life you love?

I thought this would make me feel better and while I’m less frustrated.. Oh no it’s back. The frustration is back.

I’m sitting here and I want to scream what the fuck is wrong with this world!!!!

Why do I feel like this you ask??

Here is the truth alot of people suck. So I’m done being nice.

Nice is for suckers!!!

Think about it. If I have ever told someone to be nice its because they’re about to pop off and tell someone about themselves in a very real and blunt way.

The world now needs the cold hard truth I’m done being nice.

Follow me here for a minute before you judge.

Think about it someone does something to you, when you have had enough and want to confront the person you’re told to be nice. What about the person who is causing the issues?

We need to be considerate and factual.

Fuck being nice.

Speak your truth. Hold yourself to the same standards and accountability as you hold others. Check yourself and make sure you’re living right before checking anyone else.

Do whats right for you!

Thank you for coming to my Tami talk!!