I woke up at 1 am so many good things are happening, yet I still am unsettled. I can see it all happening and it’s coming in fast. Here I still sit struggling to release the pain of the past.

I truly believe most people don’t understand the meaning or being of love. If they did there is no way, they would do the things they do. It doesn’t take a rocket science to understand if you’re intentionally causing harm to another in order to feel better about yourself that’s not love it’s toxicity, release them from your personal hell. Love doesn’t cause pain, manipulation, control, greed, hate or toxicity only ignorance and immaturity do.

Isn’t it time we all actually tried to do the best we can do, being a good person shouldn’t come hard it’s true. Yes life gets painful for us all, but to allow your heart to be hardened is the biggest detriment of all.

The reason is simple I would never do that to another person. Even if they intentionally hurt me, so I cannot fathom hurting someone you love just to hurt them to feel better about your life. Sometimes even when our feelings are hurt it doesn’t mean you’re automatically right. Stop letting emotions rule you and look at the facts. I know it’s your life but the world is for us all, you don’t get to take control and dictate to us all.

The only thing I pray is when you tally it all up in the end, I hope the pain you handed out belonged to the right recipient. All wrongly checked and claimed bags of pain, will be handed to their rightful owners, before life is complete. Welcome to the age of knowing, we’re no longer asleep.

I won’t handle those who hurt me recklessly, I will be kinder while I hand you back the pain you so quickly threw at me, I will be decent enough to break it down and show you how it’s was your suitcase all along. I will even show you my wisdom I was able to gain from your lesson.

Trust what was done is the darkness is coming out into the light. For far too long I allowed myself to be the blame of it all, I stumbled long enough it was your job to catch me if I should fall. We are entrusted with the well being of our children that is a fact. If you didn’t want me you shouldn’t have had me, guess what I’m here you can’t send me back.

Yet what you did was uncalled for, you took everything away intentionally when I became sick and couldn’t handle it all. You saw it as the final straw, you took full advantage of the situation and put a wedge between us all.

The thing about taking a big fall, once you I regained my strength and got back up, I decided it was time to stand up for all.

I’m sick and tired of the pain and the games, why can’t we see doing the same things repeatedly and expecting a different outcome is a definition of insane.

These things won’t change until we hold others accountable and stop accepting abuse as love. If you didn’t know, now you know.

We are all divine and nothing sent from the divine will fill you with pain, only with love. So if it hurts it’s a lesson guiding you to love yourself, to learn to speak your truth and defend what is right for you.

This is your life if it’s not the one you hoped for and it isn’t right for you. Ask yourself why you’re there you only get one shot at least give yourself a good one!

If it’s not love you may want to ask yourself why you stick around and slowly wait to die, they aren’t gonna change and times going by, take those broken wings and learn how to fly.

You deserve a life of love and peace, it can absolutely be yours you simply have to believe and try.

First decide what is and isn’t acceptable for you, get out of your comfort zone and try something new. Start telling others what is and isn’t okay for you, this is basic human decency. I don’t like this and I won’t do it to you, don’t do it to me.

It’s simple and true. Yet when it comes to speaking up and honoring ourselves it’s something that most of us simply don’t do. I believe it’s because we don’t think we have the right, which is funny when you consider this is our life.

We must read in order to comprehend, we must speak in order to teach, we must learn to communicate in order to understand and we must be willing to have deep hard conversations judgement free, using only understanding and open minds if we’re ever to change the hearts and minds of all humans.

Children are sacrificed in so many ways everyday the children are lost and who pays the ultimate price.. the children for their parents selfish ways. So I can make sense I f the phrase hell is for children..

Parents are so wrapped up in their own hells, while the kids try to understand what’s happening and what to do, they find themselves alone with no one to talk to. Parents so busy trying to live their lives suddenly their kids became an inconvenience to their lives. The children are trapped in the hell the parent creates until the child breaks free and grows up and away.

They can’t see that the children struggle too and on top of the pain of the reality they children get blamed for what the other parent wouldn’t live up too. What they also didn’t see is we are here to speak the truth. It ends with us it’s isn’t something we’re going to continue.

If you don’t like your children because of your ex allow me to remind you of this. You chose your ex, your child was innocent. It’s not their fault if they came out the spitting image of him or her. They didn’t ask to be born to either of you. Many of us got a shit hand, we’re all doing the best that we can do.

The older generations disconnect seems to be a simple one. Narrow minded, pride filled, hurt egos whose hearts have hardened, why? because they have guilt and secrets to hide. We are the disappointment they hold when they close their eyes. Truth is we’re not responsible to be what they dreamed we would that was their dream, this is our life.. let’s get that clearly understood.

Too often I see adults try and try again to regain a bond with toxic parents and it’s always the same outcome. The child takes all the blame while the parents judge and take no accountability. It’s ridiculous to see all the bitterness anger and jealousy that comes so much hatred and it’s typically over money which is funny. I guess in their eyes love costs..

In my heart and soul, I have always been blessed to know love doesn’t cost a thing. I give it out freely because everyone can use it and it’s one of the best parts of me!

I only wish others could see, the things that divide us don’t even matter, will what you financially achieved comfort you in your final hour?

I know when I die want to think back and relive memories and moments with those I love, I won’t be focused on what’s in my bank account, I will be focused on the love that was shared and the people I cared for and to those I’ve created they are my legacy and they’re the greatest accomplishment of my life.

How their story is written is entirely their right! I will never judge or shame them for what they did or didn’t do, I will be there when they need guidance love and support I am their mother and for them there is nothing I wouldn’t do.

Patience and understanding comes very easily to me as I understand these life lessons are something we all go through.

There is no room for bitterness or anger towards the kids we were all kids once, why can’t we see we have no idea what’s happening personally for them and understand they’re all doing the best they can, when did we forget how hard it was growing up man?!

I just think people need to realize before the time expires. While we should love people and use things we don’t. Instead we love things and use people.. we have gotten it so wrong, stop going with the crowds it’s clear to see they’re lost.