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Letter to my father John N Irizarry

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See I am forced to go public the pain is too much to hold I didn’t leave and abandon you I was a year old.

Yet I paid with my mind, heart, little body and soul. When I found you at 18 you had an amazing life that’s for sure.. I didn’t fit in I was a burden you said it and walked away yet again.

Then 2019 came I hadn’t heard from you in such a long time I was honestly ecstatic maybe this was it my time to matter to you, sadly it was not instead your mother was dying and none of your children cared to support you. Carly a sister that isn’t a sister to me had you reach out and hand that burden to me.

Family means everything and I was so grateful until you all took advantage and tried to use me you have to understand how that confused me and still I paid for it all, just to spend time making memories it was worth it I thought.

Then my birthday or Christmas not even a card did I receive I finally broke down and why didn’t you care about me? Your response broke my heart and my mind my spirit started to break free.. After what you said to me.

It wouldn’t be fair to your sisters yours hers and another sisters, I was devastated this is a joke right this is the first chance to do something nice and try to make up for all you never cared to do. Yet you were my father why did her daughters get two yet I got none. That hurt little girl isn’t done and she will be heard.

Your cruel words help crash down my world I had a mental breakdown from this disease of insanity you all handed to me by not behaving like adults and handling your responsibilities.

Have a conversation like an adult you literally created this chaos by ignoring your responsibility now the issue came in when u suffered my entire childhood because youcouldnt do the right thing. Then you blame and shame me for my lack of success who are you to put that on me?

You laid in the bed and got my mother pregnant you chose to walk away and never help.
You didn’t care if I lived or died and still to this day you can’t be bothered to make the wrongs right.

Instead you’re so worried about maintaining the status you tried to secure yourself with a false image that you present.
I won’t live ignored hidden taking all the blame I will speak and be heard.
Men like you are the problem in this world.
I will do all I can to change this and use my pain as the example.

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✓ There is separation in family and humanity is clinging on by a thread, it is time we are taking back control and making appropriate changes. Now we are in an awkward place of unlearning, clearing, healing, understanding, opening, Integrating new information, opening to different perspectives and reclaiming all that was wrongfully taken and held back from us. However we aren’t doing it in hate or anger or even pain, we are doing it in love and through changed behaviors! It begins as we uplift one another and remind each other that we are all divine and hold the heart of Jesus and Mary within each of us! Once we find balance it all begins!
✓ Sometimes people need separation so that we may heal and learn a better way. This way we clear the road for whatever is meant for us and we allow the other the same, often we find when the love is real it finds it way back to us. However this time it is ready for a new beginning in new ways when it does return. It is time for you to focus on yourselves and your children as you heal independently so you may come back and heal the family together. Through the true heart of Jesus and Mary can we truly change the world. It begins within each of us this is the journey home.
✓ Open to the awesomeness around you!
✓ Tami Irizarry @DivineTemptations


If you’re seeing this it’s meant for you too!!! ♾🤍

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Dear me,

I am so proud of you!!

What I’ve watched you go through, the heart break and suffering in silence, you’ve fought your way through it all!

You searched for a better way and kept your heart pure. You made your focus on true love and what is right for all. You kept unconditional love, understanding and concern in your heart and lived it at all times.

You never judged another you simply tried to understand the differences and respected everyone equally and their ways, understanding your way isn’t the only way and that is just fine.

I know you’re scared and tired. I know you feel like this pain will never end, I know in your heart and soul you can’t accept that to be the truth.

I’m so proud of you because it wasn’t for nothing and dreams do come true.

The pain is coming to an end it’s the Dawn of Anew way forward together!

New days are here. Those with pure hearts please lift your heads once and for all.

You’re divinely protected in the heart of infinite love.

I AM is here.

Hurt people hurt people and they sometimes do not know it.

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The truth is hurt people hurt people.

Have you ever wondered why?
Perhaps we should try and understand if we contributed to the hurt that these people are unleashing.

Understand this loves, If you personally hurt someone and it was intentionally or unintentionally they have the right to how they feel.

If you truly love them you will be willing to listen to understand without being defensive, If we can start living with understanding instead of judgement perhaps we can acknowledge that we are all suffering and trying to do the best we can.

If you didn’t have any hand in hurting them perhaps show a little grace and realize they may not know a better way exists.

Kindness matters to yourself and others.
It helps to heal hearts, then we can find who we truly are under all the pain we’ve endured. It’s time we do better together educate each other. Hold all as accountable as you hold yourself.
🕊🤍♾~ Tami Irizarry
We can change this world together!

Love is infinite

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I never agreed with how we were told it was to be. I’m a different breed I suppose, not a martyr, just one who couldn’t grasp the concept that no matter how many times someone hurts you that you stop loving them.

Truth be told if I love/loved you in any way and you hurt, betrayed, or tried to destroy me, I still love you and I always will.

I can’t turn it off my love, I love you as painful as it was to say goodbye to you. I had to start loving you from afar.

I came to an understanding early that just because I love you doesn’t make it ok for you to hurt me repeatedly, so I had to walk away.

Yes, I still love you and I think of you at random times and I wish you all the best in your life.

I wonder how you are and if life is good, regardless of all you did or didn’t do I am aware that it’s a two-way street with a lot of outside influences driving by with their opinions.

Occasionally I may even reach out if I hear something is wrong and that you’re going through it, this time it’s with strict boundaries in place. I am the master of my happiness and I have that key on me at all times.

You can’t affect me like you once did,

I love you still and I honor every relationship I have ever had no matter how painful, because of them I learned who I am.

So to anyone who is no longer in my life, don’t sit with loss or fear of retribution when you think of all that occurred between us.

I have no ill wishes or intent, I have no desire for revenge. I still love you, but I love myself more.

I truly am rooting for your healing and happiness. I am living my best life and I am forever grateful for the lessons we taught each other.