Early morning quiet reflection. Still healing.. it’s a lifetime kinda thing!

I woke up at 1 am so many good things are happening, yet I still am unsettled. I can see it all happening and it’s coming in fast. Here I still sit struggling to release the pain of the past.

I truly believe most people don’t understand the meaning or being of love. If they did there is no way, they would do the things they do. It doesn’t take a rocket science to understand if you’re intentionally causing harm to another in order to feel better about yourself that’s not love it’s toxicity, release them from your personal hell. Love doesn’t cause pain, manipulation, control, greed, hate or toxicity only ignorance and immaturity do.

Isn’t it time we all actually tried to do the best we can do, being a good person shouldn’t come hard it’s true. Yes life gets painful for us all, but to allow your heart to be hardened is the biggest detriment of all.

The reason is simple I would never do that to another person. Even if they intentionally hurt me, so I cannot fathom hurting someone you love just to hurt them to feel better about your life. Sometimes even when our feelings are hurt it doesn’t mean you’re automatically right. Stop letting emotions rule you and look at the facts. I know it’s your life but the world is for us all, you don’t get to take control and dictate to us all.

The only thing I pray is when you tally it all up in the end, I hope the pain you handed out belonged to the right recipient. All wrongly checked and claimed bags of pain, will be handed to their rightful owners, before life is complete. Welcome to the age of knowing, we’re no longer asleep.

I won’t handle those who hurt me recklessly, I will be kinder while I hand you back the pain you so quickly threw at me, I will be decent enough to break it down and show you how it’s was your suitcase all along. I will even show you my wisdom I was able to gain from your lesson.

Trust what was done is the darkness is coming out into the light. For far too long I allowed myself to be the blame of it all, I stumbled long enough it was your job to catch me if I should fall. We are entrusted with the well being of our children that is a fact. If you didn’t want me you shouldn’t have had me, guess what I’m here you can’t send me back.

Yet what you did was uncalled for, you took everything away intentionally when I became sick and couldn’t handle it all. You saw it as the final straw, you took full advantage of the situation and put a wedge between us all.

The thing about taking a big fall, once you I regained my strength and got back up, I decided it was time to stand up for all.

I’m sick and tired of the pain and the games, why can’t we see doing the same things repeatedly and expecting a different outcome is a definition of insane.

These things won’t change until we hold others accountable and stop accepting abuse as love. If you didn’t know, now you know.

We are all divine and nothing sent from the divine will fill you with pain, only with love. So if it hurts it’s a lesson guiding you to love yourself, to learn to speak your truth and defend what is right for you.

This is your life if it’s not the one you hoped for and it isn’t right for you. Ask yourself why you’re there you only get one shot at least give yourself a good one!

If it’s not love you may want to ask yourself why you stick around and slowly wait to die, they aren’t gonna change and times going by, take those broken wings and learn how to fly.

You deserve a life of love and peace, it can absolutely be yours you simply have to believe and try.

First decide what is and isn’t acceptable for you, get out of your comfort zone and try something new. Start telling others what is and isn’t okay for you, this is basic human decency. I don’t like this and I won’t do it to you, don’t do it to me.

It’s simple and true. Yet when it comes to speaking up and honoring ourselves it’s something that most of us simply don’t do. I believe it’s because we don’t think we have the right, which is funny when you consider this is our life.

We must read in order to comprehend, we must speak in order to teach, we must learn to communicate in order to understand and we must be willing to have deep hard conversations judgement free, using only understanding and open minds if we’re ever to change the hearts and minds of all humans.

Children are sacrificed in so many ways everyday the children are lost and who pays the ultimate price.. the children for their parents selfish ways. So I can make sense I f the phrase hell is for children..

Parents are so wrapped up in their own hells, while the kids try to understand what’s happening and what to do, they find themselves alone with no one to talk to. Parents so busy trying to live their lives suddenly their kids became an inconvenience to their lives. The children are trapped in the hell the parent creates until the child breaks free and grows up and away.

They can’t see that the children struggle too and on top of the pain of the reality they children get blamed for what the other parent wouldn’t live up too. What they also didn’t see is we are here to speak the truth. It ends with us it’s isn’t something we’re going to continue.

If you don’t like your children because of your ex allow me to remind you of this. You chose your ex, your child was innocent. It’s not their fault if they came out the spitting image of him or her. They didn’t ask to be born to either of you. Many of us got a shit hand, we’re all doing the best that we can do.

The older generations disconnect seems to be a simple one. Narrow minded, pride filled, hurt egos whose hearts have hardened, why? because they have guilt and secrets to hide. We are the disappointment they hold when they close their eyes. Truth is we’re not responsible to be what they dreamed we would that was their dream, this is our life.. let’s get that clearly understood.

Too often I see adults try and try again to regain a bond with toxic parents and it’s always the same outcome. The child takes all the blame while the parents judge and take no accountability. It’s ridiculous to see all the bitterness anger and jealousy that comes so much hatred and it’s typically over money which is funny. I guess in their eyes love costs..

In my heart and soul, I have always been blessed to know love doesn’t cost a thing. I give it out freely because everyone can use it and it’s one of the best parts of me!

I only wish others could see, the things that divide us don’t even matter, will what you financially achieved comfort you in your final hour?

I know when I die want to think back and relive memories and moments with those I love, I won’t be focused on what’s in my bank account, I will be focused on the love that was shared and the people I cared for and to those I’ve created they are my legacy and they’re the greatest accomplishment of my life.

How their story is written is entirely their right! I will never judge or shame them for what they did or didn’t do, I will be there when they need guidance love and support I am their mother and for them there is nothing I wouldn’t do.

Patience and understanding comes very easily to me as I understand these life lessons are something we all go through.

There is no room for bitterness or anger towards the kids we were all kids once, why can’t we see we have no idea what’s happening personally for them and understand they’re all doing the best they can, when did we forget how hard it was growing up man?!

I just think people need to realize before the time expires. While we should love people and use things we don’t. Instead we love things and use people.. we have gotten it so wrong, stop going with the crowds it’s clear to see they’re lost.

https://www.lakotatimes.com/articles/rainbow-warriors/

The elders knew what was going to come, the faith they had was and has always been unwavering.

What no one seems to understand is they were absolutely right. The rainbow warriors would be the ones to save the world.

Who are the rainbow warriors?

Allow me to introduce you to anyone who has fought for love in any real way and that includes those who paid dearly.

I’ve been shown by God/Source/Great spirit, the rainbow warriors are found everywhere.

I speak for myself but I find it to be Particularly in the LGBTQIA community. Yes let me explain from my personal experience. I am a lesbian, I have had to fight every single day for my right to love. As a mother in the nineties I worried all the time that they would take my children simply because I loved a woman.

Much like those before me who lost their lives, homes, families; I went through similar struggles and heartbreaking loss and traumas. To be honest we opened the broken hearts club and became advocates for all, in what is right for all.

We payed dearly every step of the way, yet I couldn’t be more proud of being gay.

My struggles and pain only paved the path for my own daughter to come out as a lesbian and receive the support and love she deserves.

There isn’t a better feeling to be had if you’re a true of heart mom or dad! You just get it. If my suffering helped in any aspect, that’s a blessing and a beautiful gift.

Yet here we are in 2022 and again they threaten our freedoms. How many more lives will be lost for the belief of man?

They’re trying to undo all we have fought for with our lives. I am sick of it and can’t stand this hate and evil anymore.

Why is this country run by those fueled on hateful personal beliefs and evil in their hearts? So focused on power and control they happily will sacrifice each and every soul.

It’s time to take control back and set it right for all!

Either we finally stand up together and unite once and for all. They’ve already proven that divided we fall.

This country has become so over run with greed, taken over by manipulation. They weaponized their own people against each other, make no mistake this is a war on humanity.

In school you were taught how to obey, you were told what to think. How to behave and what is and isn’t socially acceptable which bred intolerance and judgement and led us all to shame.

Those who thought for themselves and spoke their minds had no choice, me personally I felt forced into speaking up. How could I be quiet with the reality I was born into? Truth is it was done to everyone and we all did the best we could do.

We did our best to warn you all and now of it all is too hard to bear.

We understand and there is no judgement, now it’s simply time to do better. When you know better you do better. You soon will.

Ignorance is no longer an acceptable excuse, if you wouldn’t like it done to you don’t do it to another. So simple yet so true.

Those addicts in your families that you threw away did you ever once consider what happened to them? What was done to them to make them become this way? Or did you fill with shame anger and judgement and ultimately throw them away.

Simply because you feel something doesn’t make it right. There are so many different perceptions to open to. Try to open to understanding again. Those walls you built to protect you when your heart couldn’t take anymore are the same walls preventing love from truly entering.

I promise you this no God will ever judge you without taking it all into consideration and we all deserved the same opportunity yet it was stolen from us so trust unless you’re intentionally evil you’re good.

It’s time to speak up for everyone and that includes you! Yes you matter too! Please realize this is for everyone of us!!!

All the outcasts, misfits, rainbow warriors, gay, straight, no labels it’s time to just be beautiful you!! If we don’t stand up for each other because it’s not our problem who is going to be left to stand for you when they come?

If it’s not your fight and it’s not right simply don’t participate what are they going to do arrest all who refuse to fight a mans war over control, when they are fighting Gods war for the heart and soul of man. We will never achieve peace while we’re fighting another mans war.

It’s time to try again in a better way together and begin Anew. The God of my heart is all about love and peace and I only speak the truth. 🕊🤍♾ I love you

Hurt people hurt people and they sometimes do not know it.

The truth is hurt people hurt people.

Have you ever wondered why?
Perhaps we should try and understand if we contributed to the hurt that these people are unleashing.

Understand this loves, If you personally hurt someone and it was intentionally or unintentionally they have the right to how they feel.

If you truly love them you will be willing to listen to understand without being defensive, If we can start living with understanding instead of judgement perhaps we can acknowledge that we are all suffering and trying to do the best we can.

If you didn’t have any hand in hurting them perhaps show a little grace and realize they may not know a better way exists.

Kindness matters to yourself and others.
It helps to heal hearts, then we can find who we truly are under all the pain we’ve endured. It’s time we do better together educate each other. Hold all as accountable as you hold yourself.
🕊🤍♾~ Tami Irizarry
We can change this world together!

Bless up and open to truth. This is what I do with unsolicited advise.

Allow me to share this nugget of knowledge with you.
Release the beliefs that you know anything about another, you do not you simply know yourself and what you don’t wish to acknowledge within is shown to you through your interactions with others.
Before you should anyone remember this, don’t tell me what I should do and I won’t tell you what you should do.
When we avoid our own healing because we’re too stuck to realize it is us crying to be healed, we project it on to others and while that is beautiful and so sharing it’s important to give that love and attention to yourself. Bless up Queens and Kings. 🤍🕊♾ Love Forevermore -Tami Irizarry.

love #peace #westandunited #spirituality #healing #StopPretending #getright #getready #getreal #lovethelifeyoulive #livethelifeyoulove #NoMoreExcuses2022

What’s the matrix??

Hello love and welcome!!

I know how overwhelming this can all feel. So the best way I can describe the matrix is to describe you first. Allow me to explain, when you were born you were perfect absolutely full of unconditional love and innocence.

As you grew and others were responsible to help you to learn and mature. They may have taught you some ways that weren’t right or created some pain within you. Now as an adult you’re finding who you were before the world told you who you were.

The matrix is anything that tells us what to think or feel rather then allowing us to simply be who we are and embracing it. The matrix is those in control who seek to remain in control over power and greed.

They do this with lies and through intentional manipulation they have a say over what information we are given.

They rely on fear and hate, to do and to take as they wish without consideration or consequences.

So now here we are as a human race and we’re not unintelligent, we are not so soft spoken anymore, we are not afraid and we are coming together to stand for what is right for all.

We are informing and educating as we do our best to uplift, heal and encourage each other on our journeys when our paths cross. I hope that has helped to give you a better understanding. If you have any other questions feel free to ask! We’re all in this together!

We’re all in this together!

I’m asking for your help to grow this page. For far too long many have wandered in search of answer with no safe place to find them. There are far too many people alone and struggling with the same questions and with no one to ask. Simply because they’re scared of being judged.

Now im a straight shooter and I am not emotion based when it comes to the right and wrong of life. Right is right for everyone or no one at all.

So if you don’t want it done to you don’t do it to anyone else.
Be kind put yourself in someone else’s shoes.
I know many have a lot of questions and are struggling.

I’m opening a Free Q&A about the journey and how to progress. At https://www.facebook.com/groups/1163348093828054/.

This will remain open free now and forevermore!

This group is not here to judge. I know that this journey that I am on personally there is no way for anyone to understand what I am personally experiencing first hand, with that understanding I don’t judge another soul.

What I do is seek to understand, I ask for clarity instead of assuming so I ask that you try that way while interacting with each other let’s keep it a safe space for all.

On different levels we experience different vibrations and emotions. Some are new. Some advanced. All absolutely where they are meant to be and all equally important.

These are basic human decencies, we’re all in this together let’s bring humanity back!!
For too long we’ve lost our way, I need your help to grow this group and make real change!!!

Remember I am my own healer.

So while I spent this early morning revisiting the past. It is now 8:00am and the birds are chirping. it is a beautiful day to be alive!

The one thing I have learned is that I am the one who chooses how I experience this life and I choose to be happy. Too much of my life has been controlled by the actions of others. I won’t allow that again, it is my life and I live it for me.

I guess I am telling you this to help remind you, no matter how bad the past is, how dark the depression there is hope. When it gets bad put your hand over your feel it beating and know my love you are a work of art! I love you all.

Hold on change is coming although it hurts to grow, its necessary. We deserve love, peace and happiness. Freedom from all the shackles that have held us back.

2022

2022 wishes for myself and all I love

I simply wish for us to do better, to live a life of peace, true love, and joy. With honest open communication, this can be achieved. I know because I live it every day of my life.

I depend on absolute honesty because it is what I give, any form of manipulation however good you may think you are doing is still only causing harm.

If I know your intentions I can plan my life accordingly. It is far kinder, to be honest than to keep someone waiting around when you have no intentions of following through.

You’re only preventing them from moving forward and although you may say it is because you don’t want to hurt their feelings.

I promise in the long run you’re doing more harm than good with the little white lies.

It’s time, to be honest.

Give people a chance instead of assuming their actions and reactions.

Stop and consider how you make others feel, this life isn’t a one-way road of taking what you can and never worrying about anyone else.

If this is how you choose to live may I ask how it would feel if this is how you were treated?

When people cause you intentional pain that they are aware of letting them go is self-love.

If you’re unsure if they know they hurt you tell them and ask them to stop.

Stop assuming people know, use your voice and speak up and say something.

If someone is controlling who you can talk to and when please realize that isn’t healthy it’s abusive to control the actions of another. It stems from fear and insecurity that If another has access to you they will lose control.

With anything in your life make it make sense to you in every way and if it doesn’t make sense it’s time to find out why!

Master manipulators are out there yes and trust they cannot continue to thrive once we stop accepting their behaviors. Most people aren’t evil they’re just hurt little kids pretending they’re grown trying to do the best they can, it’s time to grow and learn.

There is absolutely a balance, it is achievable, We owe it to ourselves and the future to try.

We all deserve love.

Yet love as we have been taught is painful and untrue it is mixed with other emotions that it never belonged to.

Love doesn’t exist freely where there are lies and manipulation.

Trust can never be formed truly where there are lies and manipulation.

What we have learned is love mixed with control and manipulation, love controlled and manipulated turns into regret.

Regret turns into pain, pain into grief, grief into despair, fear and anxiety come along and bring loss. Don’t you see?

It’s 2022 Let’s gift each other honesty and clear communication. No one is asking for perfection simply progress let’s try and be better.

Teach ourselves, our children, and parents how to break the cycles, by speaking up for what’s right at home!!

It’s time to stop allowing Weak-minded individuals to control the narrative of the story by keeping you in a place of fear, shame, or guilt.

Speak up for yourself and others.

This isn’t about blaming anyone.

Bad things that happened to all of us, generational trauma is very real, look around.

Some have had it far worse than others yes, We are not blind, We are not deaf, We are not mute.

We see the evil. We call out the evil, We end it together. We are aware.

We are the change we’ve been waiting for, It is up to us to stop allowing it to continue!

Remember this above all right is right when it is right and just for all not just some.

We all deserve better.

Let’s do it together. Love Wins!

Love is infinite

I never agreed with how we were told it was to be. I’m a different breed I suppose, not a martyr, just one who couldn’t grasp the concept that no matter how many times someone hurts you that you stop loving them.

Truth be told if I love/loved you in any way and you hurt, betrayed, or tried to destroy me, I still love you and I always will.

I can’t turn it off my love, I love you as painful as it was to say goodbye to you. I had to start loving you from afar.

I came to an understanding early that just because I love you doesn’t make it ok for you to hurt me repeatedly, so I had to walk away.

Yes, I still love you and I think of you at random times and I wish you all the best in your life.

I wonder how you are and if life is good, regardless of all you did or didn’t do I am aware that it’s a two-way street with a lot of outside influences driving by with their opinions.

Occasionally I may even reach out if I hear something is wrong and that you’re going through it, this time it’s with strict boundaries in place. I am the master of my happiness and I have that key on me at all times.

You can’t affect me like you once did,

I love you still and I honor every relationship I have ever had no matter how painful, because of them I learned who I am.

So to anyone who is no longer in my life, don’t sit with loss or fear of retribution when you think of all that occurred between us.

I have no ill wishes or intent, I have no desire for revenge. I still love you, but I love myself more.

I truly am rooting for your healing and happiness. I am living my best life and I am forever grateful for the lessons we taught each other.

Rainbow Warriors Rise

So much talking.

With nothing much to say.

In a world where there are so many haven’t been taught how to properly understand emotions, how to openly communicate without being defensive. Lets be real conversations aren’t that deep, no one really knows what they’re trying to say…. let alone what’s being said and you can forget about them hearing you because most people don’t know how to listen to hear, instead they listen to respond. Then you have to also understand comprehension and perception because the ability to truly comprehend isn’t as simple as you think… instead of clarifying to be sure our message was heard we jump to assume it was. Ironically we need to change it but nothing ever changes until it is addressed, but where do we begin to address it in a world conditioned to silent obedience? 

Some turn a blind eye to the issues they can’t control and hide behind the veil of ignorance trying to discredit the issues they deem don’t involve them that is how.. Privileged Society pushes forward ignoring all the tears and cries they turn up the music, buy a pretty mask to cover the ugly truth. Their hearts filled with rage, their souls lost in feelings they can’t put into words. The world is begging to be healed as it is ravaged in every imaginable way. Broken children searching for hope, hearts longing for a savior in any form at all, something, anything just to feel a little bit of peace. A beautiful distraction from the pain sounds so so good in this cold and evil world, please understand the price we end up paying is far too deep. The privileged walk on by not concerned with you nor I. Something shifts.. they are worried but they keep up appearances not wanting to accept what is coming for them. There lives start to crack and chaos begins to flood in, lying to themselves afraid to admit who they have truly been. The privileged were given all the opportunities to make a difference and fully heal the pain resulting in permanent change, to make amends for all the wrong that had been done. Miserably they failed and instead took full advantage and now because of greed they lose it all. 

You know them, the privileged ones they are the ones who said they’re better then me & you, they are the powerful, they are in charge, they’re too important, they’re too busy, they’re to stressed… too care about the matters of family or the heart. No light on within seeking to fill the void, quietly yet violently they fill themselves with all the distractions and entrapments they can find that allows them to continue to play this part. They can’t remove the mask and if they even tried they would see it’s one of millions in this world of evils, cancers and greed this is the only place where they will ever succeed.

The messages from source come out of the mouths of divine messengers much like me and you. Knowing the gateway to the soul is reached only by those whose hearts are touched by the arts, music became a new way to experience life. The privileged had the knowledge and wealth so they gained control of the way the message was presented and Instead of invoking peace while listening, we were only allowed to experience the messages through a chaos frequency. Chaos started overflowing more frequently and people were believing the lies they were fed over their own knowing and truth. They started to accept restrictions over freedom, then they chose convenience over care and they started saying love when they should have said pain while they were trying to describe pleasure everything was so confusing because nobody spoke they got confused and hate disguised and called love. 

With all the control they had, it was easy to make everyone fall in line. We watched as our natural medicines were ripped away, we watched as our healers were hunted, tortured and burned. Secretly they hoped that they would never return. They told us the truth when they said the devil is the the king of Hell. What they neglected to mention is that we all know him very well. Too many manipulations occurred so naturally we learned it easier to accept it and be complacent then to fight and die. That we simply didn’t hear them all the times they said devils name was God. You certainly didn’t question the words from above, that is unheard of what would you be thought of! 

Time is fickle and funny it’s true. The stories were hidden & the lies became truth, With each life lost, each broken heart and tortured soul… we lost all the traditions and the ways of the old. We lost our culture our traditions our magick. Our souls shattered like glass into small fractions of truth. Through the lessons we were once forced to learn, our memories faded and we adopted their ways as our own. We began to want the lies they sold us. Trying desperately to fit in and be part of their history. what high prices to have access to a little decency. The food they provided us so convenient and so tasty we couldn’t understand the fact they were knowingly leading us to our graves early. 

We started to blindly trust all they said and did, we believed the organized medical care system had our best interests at heart. They happily allowed us to believe, its great they have an cure for anything and everything.. it’s the one stop cure all never realizing the price we soon would pay for it all.

Through it all there were very few could truly still see. Segregated and divided, alone they stood each of them holding the light of divinity, Waiting for the others to answer the call.. This is where I come in and it’s a pleasure to meet you all. Call me Tami I know you think you don’t know me. That’s okay I know who you are and we have some commonalities. I am the only me I can be but they call us the black sheep’s, the loners, the freaks, the throw away kids, the left behinds, the forgottens, the abuseds, the addicts, the lunatics, the unloveds, the ones persecuted, the ugly , the tortured, the oddballs, the lesbians, the fat people, the gays, the losers, the different ones, the weirdos, the troubled children in the eyes of privileged society. We are the same we are the ones they tried to destroy, the ones they burned, enslaved, ruined, desecrated. RETURNED!

We are the product of hopes and dreams, we are the rhythms of drums found in countless heartbeats. We are the the lineage of the true Source of it all. Christ consciousness, love, integrity, truth, justice, balance, honor, karma, darkness brought to light. We are all the dreams of the women and men, ages, races from all shades the black, the browns, the yellows, the reds, the whites, the greens. We are the Rainbow Warriors.

Into the truth we light the way, we pave the path. We stand proudly remembering who we are, awakened to it all hear our message near and far! The time has come for the false to pay, the scales of justice have had no balance for too long. Anything gained by intentionally harming another is starting to be removed for all the pain every, every tear, every bit of innocence lost, every thievery, every heartbreaking moment that was caused in all lives, with evil intent in the names of lies, while they greedily stood right by. While they fed you lies and made you bow, telling you all the ways your were wrong, purposely making you regret the day you were born. 

Redemption is here and Bob wasn’t wrong this my loves is your redemption song…. Repay you they will and the generations to come until they have satisfied all the karmic debt that is to be repaid for every generation, life, blessing and family member they have stolen away from you and stolen from. They will pay for the pain every, every tear, every bit of innocence lost, every thievery, every heartbreaking moment that was caused in all lives, with evil intent in the names of lies.

Judgement is hear the day has come, they walk amongst you the chosen ones, the overlooked and overwhelmed the meek as they were called.

Now are called to stand at the completion of their Grand Rising.

Phoenix you are reborn.

The time is here take your rightful place and inherit the earth.

The efforts and trials you have endured have not been in vain.

The battles you fought and all you have lost wasn’t without purpose.

The day of reckoning is here, rejoice in knowing the glory is yours!

The blessings will now begin to flow. 

Stand firm in your truth and continue to grow there is more to come do not stop now.

The only way to fully ascend is to clear all the old baggage out.