How am I supposed to forget you

Every memory I have in the last 4 years are all beautiful and include you…

I can’t force my heart to forget that life was better with you and you’re forcing me to move on without you. Love was meant to be everlasting now these days are flying by no calls or texts from you my guy.

How was it so easy for you to walk away from me and all we had you did it with ease after telling me I was the best you ever had.

Did what we have mean anything at all because I’m still here hurting and you never call. How did it all get so bad so fast that you walked away leaving us in the past.

I miss you I wish I didn’t but when life was with you it was something so different and I saw our future and all we could be, yet you walked away and now you’re free.

I traded it all just to be with you and you traded me away there wasn’t shit I could do. February 21 2023 was the last time I saw you and now you’re happy and free. I can’t lie to myself or pretend I don’t care I truly believed in my heart you would always be there.

What could I have done better I try to understand how you went from my everything and now you’re not even a fan.

I don’t think of you every single day

Yet I miss you in every single way. I wonder what we could have been if you would have continued to fight for us by my side.

I won’t say nasty things or pretend that I don’t love you that’s pointless to me. I am honest with my heart and it still breaks as it beats.

You’re gone it’s something I’m getting used to although I wish it wasn’t so, I wish I could make you feel all the love I have for you so you would feel it as you go on your journey.

I thought it would be us every step of the way now it’s me getting over you slowly day by day, I don’t want to yet you gave me no options in my own life as you chose to walk away.

I still miss you, I pray that you’re well. I no longer cry over you and life no longer feels like hell.

One day

One day you will remember the love I gave you as it really was

You will think of me again

You will tell the next one how I was crazy and that you had enough

You will remember how I cared for you and put you above myself

You will reach out to call me and forget yourself

Time won’t return to give us back what you took from us

Like a thief in the night you left and took all my love no fight no warning you just up and left saying that you had to find yourself.

I still don’t know what happened communicating is your strong point

You said you loved me more then you loved yourself and enough was enough

One day you will miss me.

You learned to live without me that’s something I’m still learning to do

I’m heartbroken for sure and wished it didn’t end not only did I lose my fiancé I lost my best friend.

True Love

I am in love, I am what I do.

I love in love, I’ve learned a better way. It’s more then what you say, but also how you say it.

Love speaks through all that you do, it’s in the words you choose and the way that you move. It flows through you and others feel and see it too.

Love is who I am, love is what I do.

Love is free and love is true, understand the ways of love start with simply being you. You before the world told you who you should be, go back to your better days when you could just be free.

I believe in love, it’s been there for all the change. No matter the trauma or the pain love stood by my side while I felt lost and afraid.

It wasn’t a love from another not always you’ll see.

The deepest love I’ve ever known has come from within me.

I’ve consoled myself when I couldn’t take anymore.

I woke myself up and pushed me towards the door.

I’ve wiped my tears and rocked through my cries.

I’ve stayed by my side through all the goodbyes.

I am in love with myself it’s how I survive in this life.

I live in love for me it’s the only way.

I exist in love, I exist for change.

I laugh in love, my heart is free.

I know who I am, inside and out.

I am free to love in the purest ways, without judgement without shame, never a worry, never blame.

I am never worried about who she wants me to be.

I showed her everything the world said was bad about me.

I was so scared god I remember. I cried like a baby so afraid of rejection.

I showed her the hair on my chin and my neck, she kissed me so deeply, holding me as I cried.

She lifted me into her arms and kissed me a million times at least it felt like that anyway.

She told me I was absolutely gorgeous and I could see it in her eyes. She meant every word she was saying.

I was almost embarrassed by my surprise, I tested her again I was still so afraid so I showed her all my scars would she still choose to stay?

She is absolutely finitely in love with me. She doesn’t hide away from me all the ways she was told not to be. We embrace all the beautiful things that make us who we are.

I don’t have to speak for her.

I speak for only me, I know it’s true in all she does it’s in the way she moves. in the way she treats me.

Haven’t we been picked apart enough, love is a safe place in that we built trust.

I feel in love, with everything in me

I think in love, I open my mind. It’s not about me all of the time, I think about it all and I make sure I understand, I ask questions seeking clarity when I don’t understand.

I trust in the communication we’ve built, I am free to ask without shame or guilt. We teach and learn from each other as we go, how can we learn if we’re so afraid to ask we pretend to know.

I know in love, I don’t own you, you are not mine.

I learn in love, change happens all the time. I am only me. I control my time. I share it with those who I choose. This is my life, these are my rules.

I evolve in love, I stand by you until you decline.

I grow in love, Boundaries set are safe and kind.

I morph in love, I adapt there is no blame it’s life.

I change in love, I simply exist to be. In an ever changing world, I grow rapidly.

I soar in love, I speak my will there is no confusion. We all know what to do.

I rise in love, I trust you with me. We speak in love it happens so easily.

I speak in love- I only mean what I say. There is no confusion or in between.

I scribe in love- to share the way. Love is the answer to changing the ways.

I see in love- Nothing else exists. I observe who you are and I understand why.

I perceive in love- I see everyone’s perspectives and can understand why.

I understand in love- It’s not my place to judge, I’m not perfect all of the time.

I will in love- All I desire to be. This begins in us all, for you as for me.

I desire in love- all that is for me.

Love is peace.

I hope you understand it would be a dream to me.

I dream in love- I breath life into motion. My dreams are messages of love from me, that I choose to share with a chosen few.

I color the world in love- I light the path for those who can see, so they may find the way. Only pure hearts can understand what I say.

I stand for what I love- All that is right and true. Right is right is right is right is right and right and true but only when right is right is right is right for everyone not just you.

I die when I cease to love- There is nothing left to feel. The pain is to intense, this life cannot be real. I look for an escape a way to make it through the day. Can anybody see me am I even real? I love so I fight for a better way. I want everyone to live a life they love so they don’t have to numb their life away. We don’t have to do it alone anymore, it’s safe to want to be free. Change happens rapidly we only need to realize, it begins with you and me.

I become in love when I fall in love with myself- The only way to heal yourself is to embrace and love all of yourself.

The parts you hate that you’ve wished away.

They are beautiful parts that you were taught to hate. I’m sorry others made you feel that way.

I know in love- This life gets tiring and we all need help is too much for us to be expected to do it all by ourselves. Help is out there is you should need.

Do what you need to make it through another day, don’t give up change is on the way.

I am proud in love- I’m proud of you for being so strong so long.

I am that I am. I am the only me I can be, love is the only way for me.

I am in love, I am what I do.

I love in love, I’ve learned a better way. It’s more then what you say, but also how you say it. Love speaks through all that you do, it’s in the words you choose and the way that you move. It flows through you and others feel and see it too. Love is who I am, love is what I do. Love is free and love is true, understand the ways of love start with simply being you. You before the world told you who you should be, go back to your better days when you could just be free.

I believe in love, it’s been there for all the change. No matter the trauma or the pain love stood by my side while I felt lost and afraid. It wasn’t a love from another not always you’ll see. The deepest love I’ve ever known has come from within me.

I’ve consoled myself when I couldn’t take anymore. I woke myself up and pushed me towards the door. I’ve wiped my tears and rocked through my cries. I’ve stayed by my side through all the goodbyes. I am in love with myself it’s how I survive in this life.

I live in love for me it’s the only way.

I exist in love, I exist for change.

I laugh in love, my heart is free.

I know who I am, inside and out. I am free to love in the purest ways, without judgement without shame, never a worry, never blame.

I am never worried about who she wants me to be. I showed her everything the world said was bad about me. I was so scared god I remember. I cried like a baby so afraid of rejection. I showed her the hair on my chin and my neck, she kissed me so deeply, holding me as I cried.

She lifted me into her arms and kissed me a million times at least it felt like that anyway. She told me I was absolutely gorgeous and I could see it in her eyes. She meant every word she was saying.

I was almost embarrassed by my surprise, I tested her again I was still so afraid so I showed her all my scars would she still choose to stay? She is absolutely finitely in love with me. She doesn’t hide away from me all the ways she was told not to be. We embrace all the beautiful things that make us who we are.

I don’t have to speak for her. I speak for only me, I know it’s true in all she does it’s in the way she moves. in the way she treats me. Haven’t we been picked apart enough, love is a safe place in which we’ve built on trust.

I feel in love, with everything in me

I think in love, I open my mind. It’s not about me all of the time, I think about it all and I make sure I understand, I ask questions seeking clarity when I don’t understand. I trust in the communication we’ve built, I am free to ask without shame or guilt. We teach and learn from each other as we go, how can we learn if we’re so afraid to ask we pretend to know.

I know in love, I don’t own you, you are not mine.

I learn in love, change happens all the time. I am only me. I control my time. I share it with those who I choose. This is my life, these are my rules.

I evolve in love, I stand by you until you decline.

I grow in love, Boundaries set are safe and kind.

I morph in love, I adapt there is no blame it’s life.

I change in love, I simply exist to be. In an ever changing world, I grow rapidly.

I soar in love, I speak my will there is no confusion. We all know what to do.

I rise in love, I trust you with me. We speak in love it happens so easily.

I speak in love- I only mean what I say. There is no confusion or in between.

I scribe in love- to share the way. Love is the answer to changing the ways.

I see in love- Nothing else exists. I observe who you are and I understand why.

I perceive in love- I see everyone’s perspectives and can understand why.

I understand in love- It’s not my place to judge, I’m not perfect all of the time.

I will in love- All I desire to be. This begins in us all, for you as for me.

I desire in love- all that is for me. Love is peace. I hope you understand it would be a dream to me.

I dream in love- I breath life into motion. My dreams are messages of love from me, that I choose to share with a chosen few.

I color the world in love- I light the path for those who can see, so they may find the way. Only pure hearts can understand what I say.

I stand for what I love- All that is right and true. Right is right but only when right is right for everyone not just you.

I die when I cease to love- There is nothing left to feel. The pain is to intense, this life cannot be real. I look for an escape a way to make it through the day.

Can anybody see me am I even real?

I love so I fight for a better way. I want everyone to live a life they love so they don’t have to numb their life away. We don’t have to do it alone anymore, it’s safe to want to be free. Change happens rapidly we only need to realize, it begins with you and me.

I become in love when I fall in love with myself- The only way to heal yourself is to embrace and love all of yourself. The parts you hate that you’ve wished away. They are beautiful parts that you were taught to hate. I’m sorry others made you feel that way.

I know in love- This life gets tiring and we all need help, it’s too much for us to be expected to do it all by ourselves.

Help is out there if you should need. Do what you need to make it through another day, don’t give up change is on the way.

I am proud in love- I’m proud of you for being so strong so long.